"i love you"

                                                           "do you have any proof?"

there's a storm coming our way,
i dont think we'll make it through

because we are growing farther
and farther apart, the wind pushes
us away from each other and
you're not doing anything to stop it.

you don't make an effort to reach
for me. you don't make an effort
to collect the strewn strings of our
love.  you just let it fly away, into the
storm.

we're at the heart of the storm but

                     i won't make it

                                  through.

i miss you so much the sky is crying

i am the kind of person that will sit in the bathroom and cry,


but then walk out like nothing ever happened.

a lot

of me

was

I CAN HOLD MYSELF TOGETHER
DURING THE DAY, I CAN OCCUPY
MYSELF WITH MINDLESS TASKS OR
SLEEP TO ESCAPE IT ALL. BUT AT
NIGHT IS WHEN I START TO UNRAVEL
AND MY EYES LEAK AND MY INSIDES
SPILL OUT AND POOL INTO MY LAP. I
AM STRUGGLING TO KEEP MY HEAD
ABOVE THE WATER AND IT HAS
ALWAYS BEEN TOO SHALLOW TO
DROWN IN BUT I THINK IT'S FINALLY
DEEP ENOUGH

i wish..

i wish to feel whole, alive again

i wish to feel your arms around me, once more

i wish you would come back to me

i would ****
to be your clothes

cling to your body
and hang from your bones

i would ****
to be the cold

tracing your body
and shaking your bones

I WAS DRUNK
AND IT DIDNT
MEAN A THING

thank you for ignoring me when i needed you the most.

"follow the north star, it will lead you to happiness"

you make me speechless,
you take all my words away
and you smile at me, innocently,
not knowing what kind of effect
you have on me, a love spell.

i don’t know why
and
i don’t care why

"and i guess,
*sometimes,
people with stars in their eyes
drown
*in the ocean of life"

T H E R E ’ S    S O M E T H I N G
B E A U T I F U L   &    T R A G I C
I N   T H E    F  A  L   L    O   U   T

the sad truth is
so many people are in love and
not together

and

so many people are together
and not in love

i miss you

it seems like everyone is an angel
until you turn it around
and their horns come out

she didn't eat
because
she wanted
to be delicate,
like a flower

her soft
skin faded
and her
petals fell


                     until she
                     wilted away

i wonder what it's like

to wake up and love yourself

to look in the mirror and not want to cry

to weigh yourself, see the number, and not want to puke

to be with friends and not feel ugly

to go into public and not be insecure

to go shopping for clothes and not feel fat

i just wonder;

what it's like to love your life.

you said i
was a
beautiful
red rose

but you
pricked me
with your
sharp thorns

and left me
here, without
help, or friend

you left me
bleeding,

you left me
here to                                                                                                      *die

whatever
       we are, i still
             remember the way
   we were

if my blades would cut my skin
as deep as your words do
maybe then
i could be dead by now

I dream of a ghost of my country
I dream of familiar skies
though our voices are silent
we still dream of home
and a thousand unspoken goodbyes

he wants to say, 'i love you'
but keeps it to 'goodnight'
because love will mean some falling
and she's afraid of heights

i want to feel whole again

i'm lost at sea

but we cannot
escape the past


                                                                                                      so you and i will
                                                                                                                         never
                                                                                                                             last

why
is
breathing
so
hard
when
you're
not
around?

YOU USED TO BE THE ONLY THING
THAT MADE ME HAPPY
BUT NOW I CANT EVEN
LOOK AT YOU

everyone leaves me

my father left me
when i was small
with my dying mother.

my mother left me
when i was in my
difficult time of
year: middle school.

my grandfather left me
because death took
him away from me.

my grandmother left me
because death wanted
more.

my friends left me
because they
found someone
better, smarter,
prettier than me.

he left me because
i wasn't good enough.

everyone leaves in the end,
        and i'm used to it.

"you said you'd always be there"