I need to tell because if I don't this thinking cap will surely fly off..
Paper with lines, you're the only soul that knows.
As if Nature already knows all my secrets.
& it does.

Shall I see you again?
I WANT TO WOULD LOVE TO FEEL ALIFE AGAIN.
Want to hold your organs again, intact, in the most beautiful vessel they chose to harbor them.

We became like shoelaces
Bodies intertwined at the seams
But when I untangled from your arms
It was like arising from the sweetest dream

I took the paints of my fractured pallet and spread them.
I splattered & mixed & even invented some shades no one had seen yet.
I made the sunrise the ocean
and turned the sun into the moon.
I even took the stars from the sky
and made them think they were fireflies too.
I took the West and flipped it East.
I took away the hunger of the Dead Sea and gave it some fish to feast.
I took the North and made it South.
& soon they all became one.
This all was a plan.
Yes, I knew what I had done;
For after the surroundings shifted,
there you were standing before me under a moon that thought it was the sun.
(As the stars danced around us in the day at night
& the fireflies fluttered in the space above us
looking for the light of one another to guide
and hold so tight.)

And if you could've only took to me just right
we could've lived happily,
melting into One,
for the rest of our whole life.

looked all my life and found only heartache, the moment i stop looking i find sucha cosmic beautiful entity. synchronistic destiny?

I've never been in love before
So if you please, I'd like to settle the score
O the material things of course you can have them back
They are of no use to me now
As all I have left of you is a book bound with some beautiful words and paper inside
And my insides
Well they tell almost the same drunken romantic story, just like how Bukowski planned it
And we both liked it that way
But you sir
It's time to settle the score
Can I get back the constant beat of racing hearts? And that walk through the woods?
You led me and I followed you through and through
Into the dark I will always follow you
Never mind that, time to settle the score
So in turn with these debts of karmic lives past and present
You have some things I gave away that I wasn't quite ready to lose yet
A thousand stares in to your eyes when you bid me all those goodbyes
And the millions of tears ****** back but ended up finding their way out the pockets of the holes to my Soul
And they would not subside, they will not subside
To settle the score even deeper let's talk about flesh
O this is a sore subject for most, and I haven't even gotten to the good parts yet
As skin and bones and meat and muscles and things and your hand slid to that small of my back
Well they all seemed to melt into each other, like the language of love learned fluently, as if we became attached
And your mouth would part open just a bit as you took your other hand and drowned me and I washed you in
And you knew the way and I could feel it too
And never not once had to tell you how to touch
It was like our bodies were crafted for each other, just as such
And all the time in the world didn't seem enough and I was always the last one to fall asleep
And sometimes during the night I would awake and look and you were still there by my side
And you were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen with these swollen eyes
Not moon in the night nor sun in the day could compare to that sleepyhead and his face
And the mornings when we would rise together at the same time and give praise to the long gone night
In thanks of another new day to begin with you
I guess I can't settle the score
Never have never will
I love you so much
Come back to me
Come Home

The night I met my Soul spark, O he was sucha cosmic twin flame to see. Stared into sky eyes that left me not knowing what to do. Words are found speechless and my breath I tried to catch as my Soul spark laid flickering by candle light is where we first met. Time stopped around us as we glowed in our own flame's light and gave me a new found meaning to love at it's very first sight. His skin draped over beautifully to the light body inside and I traced my fingertips over him to feel that his felt just like mine. We danced our first waltz, something of our very own flow and had me levitating towards the ceiling like a light-diamond rainbow. Waited so long to hold my Soul spark that now it feels like a dream. Our moment came and went so quickly like a shooting star you almost didn't see.

AND SO IF YOU FIND YOUR EYE LIDS DRAGGIN' LOW,
LET YOUR PUPILS GROW.

Create to emulate the light that hides inside
Show your true self
And no longer let the Glow subside
I see this in you
And you shall falter no more
For the ways of the wicked have Karmic flaws under their belts
Deceiving and perceiving thinking its only a dream they felt
But I know the truth
Yes I know all too well
In the consumption of your Soul which has quite a story of it's own to tell
And I will forever listen to the Tale of the Tell Tall Heart
To make you realize Darling
We have never been far apart
Always right here in the space of your chest that collects the dusted memories
Even the ones we didn't know we'd make yet
And all the suffering and all the pain I lived through for you
Just to catch a glimpse of those Ocean eyes again
And sparked my light so I could show you the way
And in turn help you with this Karmic debt you must pay
And in accordance to this tab of past lives and present
Well we lived through all of them Darling
I don't want to know a life that doesn't

Hours drift by unknowingly to me.
I just can't cut to the chase and my dreams hold no possible chance for resolution either.
And your poetry book I have just now finished,
You know the one you let me borrow the first time
But something in your brain went awry and we were both sad.
Only you still had your glow and mine burnt out sometime ago.
And so anyway, you wanted rid of me but that book you wanted to keep.
So I returned it prompt and it's full pages still blank to me.
Well now here I am back with this poetry book.
Cuz I guess you thought of me as like the words written and you wanted to read and keep me again many times.
Even though we both know I never gave myself for anyone else to play keeps with.
And the book that had to be returned, well it found it's way back into my life again.
You set it on my purse right before I left.
You said "Take it."
Which sounded too familiar to me for I thought the same lines over in my head
Every time I stare into your Ocean eyes
"Take it." I say in my mind
And then you do.
And I live the pain of holding whats not really mine,
Just like this **** book that found it's way into my hands again
That oddly I shall return for a second time
"Take it." and then you will.
And now I am awake & finished & unknowing what to now do at 4:17am
& the People Do Look Like Flowers At Last
Taking it for all it's worth with this ****** good poetry of paper resting it's face on my chest
In the spot where yours should be.

It's the...
ZzZzZzZzZz all day
Living it up my way
Cricket noises outside my window
The leaves and how the wind blows
Sun light shining thru the blinds
My life not tied to time
Good book I can't put down
Driving away and skipping town
Homies I'm for till the end
Being high from 10 to 10
Music that lulls me to sleep
Blanket that warms my feet
Phone call that makes me smile
"Stay with me for awhile?"
Smoke in my lungs
Soaking in the sun
Having too much fun
Being with my numero one
Boy that makes my heart jump
My room thats a dump
Sweet talking I want to hear
The tallest places that I fear
Hot tea at 7 o'clock
Smoking a bowl on my dock
Late mornings I crawl out of bed
Hangovers that hurt my head
Late nights I'm far from home
Waking up all alone
One I want to call my own
Getting in the zone
Weekends I lose my mind
$10 for a dime
Last voice before I go to bed
"You're all I'll ever need."
I said.

You have overgrown on me.

and the sum of it all was i was alone, a lone sum.

i was alone and i wasn't going home because i didn't have one

and i was alone because you left me this way, a lone sum.

My darling,
Open your eyes to view this most precious prize
Feel your way, there's no need to hide
Gulp to swallow this new found pride
And please know what you search for I've seen radiates on from the inside
You know this is not the end
Here your souls lies; Dormant, swirling, pooling, only waiting to begin
You seek the outer limits, a space to call your own
But still you cannot see my love for inside you is your natural home
You ponder in the thoughts of never ending strife
Why am I here? Who am I? How can I rid of this life?
The pain you only feel is blind to those with closed eyes
While laying in a bed of flower and dirt gazing starry skies
Well I tell you the answer is near
Yes it shall come only too soon
Once you find out the you lost within is what was always in tune

I am the problem with no solution
And I feel deeply I shall stay this way until my physical departure.
But with problems you see,
I am just like any other.
Too cowardly to face the truth
And too bashful to say "**** it." and start all over again.
No that is my problem.
And maybe some day the sum will strike me right in the face
Like times when you're tripping off hallucinogens and suddenly it's resolved.
Why was it so difficult in the first place?
That's the problem...Nobody really knows.

and that is You. the first time I ever really laid on eyes on you was when i saw you playing music on stage. you looked so beautiful playing, with your eyes closed, cradling your guitar while it gently wept. you create sounds and flow and loveliness every day of your life and i would be the most blessed mortal on planet earth in the presence of an angel if I could wake up every day to the sound of you playing your guitar in the next room.

The saddest song I ever did hear made the tune resound as it shed a tear.
"Why are you so sad?" I asked the song.
And she sings to me her reply so soft and she sings to me so sweet,
But still sounds so sadly, I now could hear a rain shower the green beneath my bare feet.
"I had a love once and I first saw him by the sea and he sang the most beautiful song that matched the same one as me. But the tide came in and swept him away and my love was hidden where underwater I could not stay." I felt her pain as this siren song sang to me, sullen melody to meet my own lost love in this lullaby's dreams as the saddest song I ever heard continued to weep.

She always sighed looked to the clouds and said,
"I can no longer pretend. Cuz its times like these that drive me to envy the dead."
A little lighter but still in remorse, she continued,
"And I don't mean to pry but those hues in your face, the colors of your eyes.
Well I wanted to take them and mix em with my every day visions.
Cuz its one shade I never want to forget and cease to exist silly revisions."
She always continued.
" & In the late years mist and molding leaves melting back to the earth again.
It reminded us of a simpler time we'd said.
The kind when we were able to feel alive even if we were still stuck in the womb of the town from where we came
and faulty attempts to look a little less dead."
Her eyes laughed. "Atleast on the inside anyway. I saw it in a few passing glimpses before."
But silly girls always question: "Shall I wonder to ever view those soul windows once more?"
A tattered chapter. A rememberance of melancholic place.
A word never spoke too soon so it has no mouth to try and escape.
A heart to sew on her sleeve but no instead to rip the seam apart,
string it along telephone wires signaling the urgent call
while all the neighbors nostrals flare in disgust at what some gossiped as only an electrical fire after all.
And laying in gently crippled memories of all the moments you clench your jaw and grit your teeth
and hold your breath, whether its out of anger and an upset or a loves ***** pleasure in bed.
Timeless is of the essence and I lived in the moment now.
Where tick tocks pay no wake to my sleepyhead
and my earthbound vessel can finally seek rest once the sunset decides to ***** something sweet all over the sky.
"And there." She pointed to the moon, smiling shyly, slitting from the up above beyond and wide.
"Thats where I find the colors. The ones lost from your eyes.
That crafted, ensnared and mystified all who became into existence; past, present and future combined."
And with that she disinegrated, disappeared into the space above.
A myth. A legend. It has been done.
Never to return again and visit the earthly plane she so dearly loved.

Ultra Euphoric Tunnel Time Travel Trance Dance

Your body is the temple I worship at,
your soul is the river in which I bathe, uncovering of your flowering mind of wondering that delicately hide away. Glistening in it's cave,
your eyes are the windows
that open for me.
Teleporting on a fresh flowing breeze,
one minute I'm earthly plane incarnate and in the next,
out of body celestial sea.

I swear it did that night. When I woke up in the middle of the night after we had fallen asleep the first time, I was so thankful the sun was not awake yet too and I felt time had ceased for us and as I searched for your warmth that was still right next to me, our naked bodies laying in the sea of my blankets spilled together and you so softly woke up too and all at once, I took you in again.

I drive myself crazy with the thoughts that swirl like a whirlpool in my brain.
Everything is chemical and it drives me ******* mad, drives me straight insane.
I have these dreams with all these people in them.
People I've met, people I've yet to meet, maybe even people I don't know I'll meet.
I always want to tell them that they were there.
I was only sleeping but they were there! I want to tell them.
But I don't.

I hope you're learning to listen and I hope you're learning to stay.
And I hope you're making it a mission to clean up every mess you've made.
I hope you're growing, viciously like a vine and I hope you now realize the pain you feel is the same as mine.
And I hope one day that you'll see that I AM THE ORIGINAL. Always have been. Always will be.
I hope your heart is healing. God knows my hollow one needs it too.
And I hope one day you'll realize I'm the one who writes the poems for you.
The turtle in the shell who peaks his head of his hollow cave
and has just enough time to put his spell on me before he hides again and goes away.
The wounds that you've reopened and the feelings you cannot see are what keep me awake at night
and torture the being that is me.
When all the times I've told you I love you, well I mean it until I die
and my body becomes the cosmic dust that lights up your starry sky.
Why you are in confusion I can very well tell that you've created your own creature
and lit the fires to your own personal Hell.
As I stand by softly watching just as I always have.
I'll never leave you Darling, even if it is your fire that into I am dragged.
What this hold is you have over me I cannot say but its something like when the Sun rises over the Ocean
but you know the Moon still never goes away.
My dreams are almost nightmares stained with your beautiful face
and keep me trapped in limbo without hope of escape.
I think of you always, wondering what could've been
Like the story of Happily Ever After only with a painful twist.
He always leaves her wandering but resurfaces at the convenience of his pain
and then once again abandons her beautifully feeling like a rainbow in the rain;
You cannot see her tears and he gives no umbrella to keep her safe.
So the story of you and I, it can never be written in stone until you realize Darling,
inside you is your natural Home.
I will be here waiting, choking on the smoke of every fire you started and promises you broke.
This creature you say you are is only a reflection of your mind,
tattered and broken yet still one of a kind.
I see no creature, but a boy who is afraid of the world that surrounds him that will eventually be his grave.
I know I will love you forever because in our past lives I did just the same.
I never stopped loving you. You just forced me to bury it away.
So when you lay there at night and contemplate all that you've done,
the lies you've told and the battles you've won.
The eyes that you look into and tell them that you miss.
The lips you ponder and cannot help but kiss.
The hope that you give to me but always take away.
And all the reasons why I never stop loving you even when in your shell you go to hide and stay.
So I hope that you're learning and I hope one day you'll see that when I said "Forever."
that's how I planned it to be.

I want to tell you all of my greatest stories.
So you think I'm something worth something.
But I'd like to be that top shelf item you reach for,
See the price tag
(For items do not know their own worth.)
And say,
"This one is good.
         Yes, this one will suit me best."
And then you'd take me home and put me on your lonely mantle
And at night, I'd watch you drown yourself in bottles of courage
And warm your bones by the fire I now rest above.
How love looks from afar.
Then I'd whisper,
"Hey it's not just the flames. I told you you still had your glow."

I believe I will love you until my body turns to dust. Promise to meet me on the other side, even though its just as difficult to try to meet you in real life. Maybe then when my energy is free to roam in the source of love I believe is my home, it'll be easier this way to find you and realize what we have always known.

For time has no ending
As tides do not disappoint to rise
In the sunset's gleaming meeting
Like when earth greets sky
And ancient times continued sending
On the ride where earth is in demise
The moon soundly sleeping
With stars floating in her eyes
As time is briskly sailing
In hopes to race the tide

The memory clouds my thoughts
into a forsaken hidden forest
of forbidden feature.
One of delicate depth
that gives the soul to nature.
Treacherous walls made of vines
and dead wings of things,
guarded by spirits,
the ethereal beings.

They think they know
But they don't
They think they feel
But they won't
They think they breathe
And they think they see
But their eyes will forever be clouded
To someone like me

the me i never knew was you.

I promise you,
my eyes are wide open
and I've also slept to slumber to dream to see
even the things in my mind I cannot change
and that is the piece of me that even frightens the being that is me

As soon as you showed that amateur pain
It still was all the same
I tried to keep you
My Yin to my Yang

you are my sky, a mirror to i look into you.

They said "Go away. There's no room in this place for your kind here."
So we ran off and thought, "Hell. Ain't no room in that place for our kind there
And ain't no of their kind in the room of our place here."
So we lived out beautifully made up lives together and no one was around to tell our story,
even long after we were gone.
There just wasn't any room for their kind around our place.
And we liked it that way.