“can’t repeat the past?” he said.
“why of course you can.”
and god, i believed him.
still do, most days.
because i see you
in every flash of spring,
in the gold glint of things
i was never meant to hold.
the green light still blinks,
even if it’s just in my head,
a soft pulse saying
you were real,
you were mine,
once.
i built my love the way he did:
with trembling hands,
and too much hope.
like maybe if i hurt enough,
time will fold in on itself,
and we’ll be sixteen
and invincible
again.
but dreams die slow,
especially the beautiful ones.
and i’m still reaching across water
for something
that won’t reach back.
i keep thinking:
the past isn’t dead
if i still ache for it.
but maybe that’s just part
of the story i keep telling myself,
a softer lie
than letting go.
this is a great gatsby-inspired piece. this is for the green light i still look for. and the boy i still see in it.