im only a shell not much to see ,
rusted feelings of anguish plague me.
when i was young i was on top you see,
until the day she cleaved life outta me.
tossed me out like a useless piece of trash,
not realizing she gave me a ****** ****.
so here i lay in a constant pool of blood ,
over the years like a real man should .
but for her i wasnt good enough you see,
to consider spending a life with me.
never again can i feel happiness breeze,
to dwell in sorrow life has much darker plans for me  ,
nothing now can stop this god wrenching numbing pain,
because she  left me here cold and wet to die , in the drain.

my name is jane ,though i am quite plain , im more than enough, to drive you insane.
my name is john , i hit the ****, on stage i dance ,wearing janes  thong.
my name is claire , my beuty is rare, but its not enough , john dont care.
my name is jill , and i get a thrill , when jack gooses me , and i roll down the hill .
my name is jack , love jills rack, a lil sqeeze and shell be in the sack !

its been 25 years since ive seen your face
but im still loving you seems to be the case.
why cant i just let you go?
you were special , i could sense emotion in you ,
a soul mate whos fire shined, through and through?
why cant i just walk away?
  your love broke me from the very 1st kiss.
lord why must i deal with this?
i can cry all i want but it will never heal .
To hold you in my arms made me feel ,
like a king who feasts on a royal meal.
now without you i am not whole.
broken pieces of myself , swirl in a bowl.
realizing i cant ever love again ,
killing myself i miss my one true friend.

in your youth you made me weak,
hang on every word everytime you speak.
the day we met  you stole my heart ,
forever loving you  from that very start.
the day you left  reasons unknown to me ,
killed my soul  and made me unable to see.
ive been sentanced  to serve in some hell ,
refusing to look at what ive created well.
for some reason i cant explain ,
only once in your life  could you feel so much pain.
its been 20 years and you still impede my mind
but that guys gone now whats left isnt too kind.
unable to love like i once did
im left with a sad life , sad wife , and a angry kid.

is there nothing left or anything more?
lifes been a wreck since you ran out the door.
never ever in my life will i love another like that,
theres only one soul mate in this life you see,
and for whatever reason she was dawned upon me .
ill always cherish those few moments close to my heart ,
even though you could care less as you tear me apart.
taking away my mental state and leaving me in solitude.
the me you knew is gone you took him with you .
thats a piece of my soul ive lost forever ,
cause i wont see you again , ever.
i say that not in hate because i know its true ,
no matter how much i loved , i didnt mean that much to you .................................................................­......................................................

been awhile since i had time to write,
been a battle everyday a losing fight.
been awhile since ive seen your face on a rainy day
i know for some reason its my fault everyday .
been awhile since i could let my gaurd down,
been awhile since i walked thru your town.
been awhile since i was tamed.  
since then this beast has burned his flame.


                                     I MISS YOU XOXOXO , i wish i wasnt such a *******.

though we never met,or talked or seen eye to eye,
i heard his words from the birds that fly through the sky.