You know that feeling that you get when your walking down the street at night and its dark, you start to think that someones watching you. Don't worry your not the only one that thinks that at all.
The darkness is a place,
a place of light,
a place of peace,
a place of life,
a place that most of us are scared to enter,
a place that not one we are scared of but the things in the dark also,
if your mom or dad or any family member that has ever told you that there was a monster in the walls of the house or under your bed or even if there was a monster out there in the world that will one day find you a take you away from all your loved ones you have ever know,
That monster i have met but not only is it a monster its a gal in my life, It may be a guy for you but it was a gal for me and its not bad that she took me from the others i love like my family its good because not only did she take away my love for them but she made that small love for them turn into a love that cant be deprived of anything at all ilove this gal with all my heart and she makes my world and life a better place than having a life that hurts. I use to cut and think about committing suicide i stopped writing poems because i was depressed...... not only was i depressed i was in a horrible place at the time, then i met this gal and this gal has changed my whole life. She made my life, a life to remember ilove this gal to the fullest.
love
love is not just a feeling
love is an emotion
its an action
and its everything
to show you have love for something
you cant show it
you have to feel it.
you cant deny the feeling
love is love.

I don't know, if I still care
But that doesn't even matter cause you're not here to hear what I have to say
And since you've gone away
I've been living in my yesterday
Forsaking my today
night and day
I've been searching for the answers at the bottom of every bottle
Trying to fit in the thoughts that don't even really matter
Sometimes I just sit back and push the throttle
And see where I lead myself
I don't believe myself
And I don't even really know where I see myself
With you, without ourselves
Is what they say is true ?
That we can't ever escape from ourselves
Well *******, **** everyone that has a need to tell
That there is heaven and hell
Good and bad
Maybe I should just **** myself
Maybe I would, but I guess
I don't really even care anymore
****.. I'm getting sentimental again
I am getting mental again
Maybe it's all just a game
Of names and lies
What do you do when you see someone else in those eyes
Before you can speak
The moment dies
You think you can finally sleep
But it eats you inside
Besides, you can't really tell if it's just a spell or you're losing your mind
Maybe you need help
But no pill is kind
My will is fine
My heart's still mine
Been around the world
I should have paid heed to the signs
Now there's something that feels empty inside
I've been looking but I just cannot find it
So **** it
I'm gonna take the bottle and hit the throttle
Get away from these voices that keep on getting louder
Maybe love is just not a word and tears not just water
****
I'm a thousand miles down and I've still got her
There's something about it, something about her
That drives me crazy.

I can no longer find my voice in bullets and pill bottles. So I found it among the blood and *****. Ain't it funny how the things that are bad for our health are good for our minds?