P e o p l e  **** , pretend to care but never gave a *******

Peanut butter
sadness and fruit
I once swore that i would use you as my ladder to truth
later days i felt decay so i would pray for my self
Hearing nothing returned
it would wayne on my health

I got caught
up
High in the sky ;
thinking you would join
I wallowed in my cries
whatever ;
Looking down i saw a river made
bottling the water hoping that my feelings fade

Tight ;
feeling thirsty during walks of life
drinking from the bottles till the day becomes the night

Id rather be the life on the screen than the life in front of it

I didnt need a lesson
on how to stand alone
I needed you to stay and be my comfort
my home
My zone
is shaken
I should
awaken
I was
mistaken
I feel
forsaken
Its nada
dog eat dog
Everyman for himself
depending on your friends can be bad for your health

You open up your doors
she takes a step inside
Shell marvel at the floors
shell ogle at the size
I gave this one a tour ;
more extensive than others
I let her into places
that no one else discovered
I opened up my mind
i let you touch my soul
I craved to breathe your air
you presence made me whole
But now the times have changed

I wouldn't let the masses
inside my gracious home
I see your open house
is quite unlike my own
These floors reserved for you
your palace would await
Until my world collapsed
as earth began to shake

My doors were much to open
i should have kept them closed
Inclined to let you stay
my heart is not my own

Like an apple you would peel
till all my skin was gone
My inner self revealed
my walls werent up for long
Id let you have a taste
until you reached my core
No substance left to give
i entertain no more

Throw me in the trash
with others you devoured
Ill find my way to dirt
and help to grow a flower

You used to be a drug id abuse
guess i ran out of the substance to distract from my blues
So consumed i wasn't paying much attention to cues
i digress ;
I met a bird who'd rest inside my chest
sitting in the emptiness that seemed to grow from stress  
Never disliked crows
i went about my business
Whenever i would ache he'd ****** scream till i was finished

Seasons passed this bird was still in my body
i would feed em when i ate and he'd partake in my hobbies
On a quest to find a love to help me close up this gap
but my mind is still lost
In the one that i lack
i digress ;
The sun was in my eyes i couldn't rest
sleep excessively my mind in dreams away from stress
Happy place would save me from my burdens time again
only grievance being i was there without my friend
Woke to find my crow inside the clutches of a being
radiating yellow to the point im hardly seeing
Threw my bird aside and slammed a hand upon my chest
my gaping hole was closed
My mental cleared of stress..