I've cut up my knees

The tears always seem

Thinner when I bleed

I wrote you a poem
Because I thought you'd understand
The hidden message in the words
I so carefully crafted
But you looked at me confused
Unsure of what I was saying
So I gave up and left
And now here I am
Writing another poem
Except this one you'll never see
For it's hidden where you can't find it
It's even hiding from me

Sometimes I can't stop
The tears, the pain, the lies
Or the thoughts, the words
That trap me
Sometimes I can't stop
Playing the same song
Over and over and over
Until it's all I hear
The words resonating
Through my soul
Capturing how I feel
Sometimes I can't stop
Losing myself in my sorrow
Falling again and again
Into the darkness
That creeps along
On the edges of my vision
Just sometimes I can't stop
Being the disappointing mess I am
Broken and unfixable
Unreliable
Until I can get a grip
And replace my mask
It only happens sometimes