Is it possible to be born 1000 times over
In a single lifetime?
To find new ways to feel the sun,
Even brighter reflected in your eyes
The air is different in a world
Existing beside you
Knowing that you are breathing it too
Has given it new meaning
In the same way my lungs collapse
And reform with every gasp
I will take you in
You have outshone the sun
I will be reborn in this love
1000 times over

It still hurts, seeing you exist
In this world where nothing happened
The way we wanted it to

I'm happy.
By that I mean:
I want to be happy.
By that I mean:
I'm not happy.
By that I mean:
This isn't what I want.

Am I still looking for him
When I search your face?

It's okay to want the things you shouldn't
As long as you love the things you should
I tell myself to ease this guilt
When all that remains is nostalgia
And a warm bed

This is for the "windows open and stars bright"
Your skin that smells like Hemingway novels,
The "ardently" Darcy spoke about,
For making the "silent unspeakable memories",
This is for bringing to life in me
Everything I read about,
To escape what I was living.
You are the book I always wanted to write,
The story I woke up in,
Living forever in the last chapter
Of my favorite fairy tales.

It didn't hurt to say his name
This is it,
This is when life begins.