This feeling settles in,
Making itself at home

It's so unsure,
It asks,
"What were you searching for?"
"Never mind, you can't go back..."

You'll never find it,
You'll never know it,
The cycle seems to keep on spinning...

There is something you have though,
It can't be taken,
It's yours alone,
But no matter how hard I try,
It feels like a part of me has died...

Maybe one day,
It will all make sense,
Maybe one day,
It won't.

Right now it lays at rest,
Sometimes it pours out
Uncontrolled,
For now,
I let it lie down.

It hides in the form of
Sleep and regrets,
It lies.

I am only human,
You encouraged
Me to feel vulnerable,
And I gave in
Like a child to the swing,
Blindly following.

"Smile for me."
He said, and she smiled
'how I wish you'll always smile for me'
he whispered, at the same time he said
"Say cheese!*"

I baked a cake,
For my boyfriend's  sake,
He never came,
His excuses always lame.
So I took it to old people's home,
With eager smiles we were welcomed.
The chocolate chip cake with biscuit,
Was a hit,
The oldies loved it.
The smiles and joy on their faces,
Soothed my disheartened  heart in several places.
There are many in this world who need me and appreciate my effort,
I decided to let go of the relationship,
The other could not keep.
26/7/2019

He was the storm,
I was the calm,
I learned to embrace him and grow.
26/7/2019