Watching my future grow
As I dance from out the
Window

Hello

Have you ever
Fallen out of
Love?

Have you, too,
Had to
Remind yourself
That you're
Alive?

Teach yourself to
See you
Again?

Train yourself to
See you first?

Please
Send help

Let me
Help you
Grow

***
is like
giving
a gift.

Ask what
they'd like.
Don't simply
take
what you
want.

The stress of the day
Makes her way
Down
My
Shoulders

I haven't felt
The way that I feel about you
In awhile

It makes me happy
And scared
And it fills me with
Hope
And
Eagerness.

And I love it.

So thank you

This puppet
Pulls at her
Own strings

Healed of toxic memories
Lost things and
Missing my love

Hate comes from misplaced obsession
Anger
Anger
Angry tears

How do you
Grow as a
Person when you've
Grown so
Tired of           yourself.

my god aren't you
lovely

I know I'm taking
A few
Wrong
Turns.

Let me find
My way.

I'll be better for it.

"Like what are we I don't understand because you're still here calling me love but you're not?"

//I’m sorry I shouldn’t call you love I guess that was habit.//

"But I love you"

Please send good thoughts my way
Today is a hard one

Somebody else is
Holding you close now.
Falling asleep
To the sound of your voice now.

Do you dance in the rain?
Slowly and sweetly through tears.
Do you kiss on the train?
The hushed comments of jealous strangers never reaching your ears.

Do they laugh with you?
Weep with you?
Get drunk
Party and
Sleep with you?

Are they loving you in the way
I could not seem to muster?

Do you love them
Yet?

As I allow
My heavy arms
To lay rest by my side
You puppeteer
Them up
Around you

Death
Doesn't seem
So bad
When you're
Killing me
With those
Eyes

Getting out and away from anxiety is
so
empty.

House that I built
Built around myself
Forgot to
Put in
An accessible
Door.

Alcohol a big stick to bang on the walls
Medication a blanket to keep me warm
Cigarettes so I'm not so lonely
And pain
To remind myself I'm still alive in here.

So young
When you were thrown from your nest
Learning how to fly

It seems that after time
It was as though you were
Taking in breath.

But you'll have those setbacks
The wind and the weather
Predators
Take you
Down

Left with a broken wing
Learning once more
How to breathe

It's scary
It's sudden
And once again
New

No longer so trusting
Won't jump from the nest
The pavement's so close
Right now you can rest

One day you'll be ready
One day you can try
Again you'll be learning
It's okay to fly.

It can be hard
To rebuild yourself

To allow yourself
To fail again

To allow yourself
To feel again

To cry again
To try again
To become the person
That you've trapped inside
Your head again

It's okay
To be a work
In progress.

It's okay
To start
Again.

There is a
Secret
That shares my every
Emotion.

Starting from the
Decolletage,
It peers 'round every
Forced smile
And
Kind word.

Vermillion
Is a cruel mistress
That climbs my neck
And clings to my *******.

Bright
Red
Sirens.

You can not hide from her.
The more you try
The further she creeps
Up
My
Neck.

Baby
I'm barely
My own.

Don't call me
Yours.

She's
Just
So
Lovely

Confidence falls
In ringlets down
The back of her neck

I am doing
Well.

Learning to
Love
Myself.

Spending time
With
Me.

Is
Anything
About
Me
Anymore?

You
Talk
Sing
Cry
Sleep
Hide
Leave
Run

Too much.

Pushing with all the strength I can render
Against the love and acceptance holding me up

Wanting so desperately to fall apart
Fighting so hard go hold it together.

Silence
has a way of

Announcing
Itself

so
incredibly
                    loudly

Respect
Is not something
To hold against others.

Give it freely.

Drives home from work
2:30 AM
Thoughts of chocolate
And police cars
And rest

I have this kink
where I want to be treated like
****.

Not because I
enjoy it.

Because I feel like I
deserve it.