Just
A body
A chore
A problem
A violin

For
A knife
To play upon.

Here
I'm not
Here
I'm not
Here
I'm not

As I allow
My heavy arms
To lay rest by my side
You puppeteer
Them up
Around you

Is this
Compatibility
Or are you just
Watching out for me?

I am doing
Well.

Learning to
Love
Myself.

Spending time
With
Me.

Did you know
My love
That I am doing quite well?

Did you know
My love
That I am punishing myself?

Did you know
My love
That I am quite unwell?

Did you know
My love
That the sight of you
Causes me
To bleed?

Did you know?
My love?
Did you know?

Silence
has a way of

Announcing
Itself

so
incredibly
                    loudly

Please do not
Mock me.

I am doing
My best.

Is
Anything
About
Me
Anymore?

And I dreamt

peace came to me

in the form of

sobs and shakes.

I have this kink
where I want to be treated like
****.

Not because I
enjoy it.

Because I feel like I
deserve it.

Okay but you all really expect me to go to school from the age of six all the way to 23 and then just jump into a full time job like hello?

Somewhere
In there

Find me
In my
Mind

Her kisses are on
Other people's necks now.

So I guess I'll just ******* die.

Moving away from
the norm.

I'm not scared
Not nervous
No fear

but

I am plagued by
"What if?"

Allow me to
Swim within your gaze
And
Lay rest upon your lips

Day 2

Isn't this cute

Halloween in June

This year
I'm

A mess.

Yeah you can keep
Calling

Cigarette
Smoke
Spills from her
Cherry lips.

Easy.
Tease.
*****.
Love.
Cutie.
****.
Heartbreaker.
****.
Sweeth­eart.

Missing you
In
Silent
Sobs
And
Shakes.

Writing me off as
The one that got away

As I'm
Begging you to stay

You
*******
left me.

These things will **** you
You know.

Inhale that sweet *******
Nicotine.

Mesmerizing how
The light can make
Things so

Different
and
New.

Don't want to
Be loved
Just want to
Make love

I am much more frightened
When I feel
Nothing
At all

Than when I feel
Everything
At once.

**** me
Until I'm not
Lonely
Anymore

I've seen
The ocean.
Waves breaking
In your eyes.