I am worrying
that I am worrying my
worrisome life away

4:51 PM
24/7/24

Some of us
favor our solitude
over the company of others.
We seek out silence like
the moon seeks out the night
because there are days when
our stars burn out and
running from the sun is
the only way to protect
their glorious glow.

Learning to look  at you from afar,
to not reach you with these hands,
to get used to the silence,
to become strangers
once again
is one of the
most difficult
lessons I have endured
and am still learning.

Maybe there
was no struggle.
Maybe it was me,
myself and my thoughts
all along.

I worry about the day
my tank will deplete
and I won't be able
to give you my
all for I will be
running on
empty.

One common misconception
about night owls is that it
isn't about staying up late,
not to party or to relax,
but the feeling the silence
and the darkness brings.
In this solitude we find peace of mind,
we find the atmosphere to create,
to work and to unwind.
The world is asleep and I
have never felt more alive.

What if everything
was as scary as my mind
made it out to be?

10:56 PM
4/7/24