oh how i wish i could escape oh how i wish i could fly oh how i wish i would just die i wish i could just walk away from the pain that suffocates me daily i know i will never amount to anything at all but i am going to attempt to pick up the pieces from which I'm scattered to be honest  i will never be the same way i once was because I've been beaten broken and bruised these ******* girls i get so aggravated that my brain swirls i can't even remember the last time i actually felt loved by anybody at all i help everyone i can but no comes to pick me up when i fall what about me........

I lay in a bed that is too warm,
while the inner wind is too cold
and the sounds of rain, echo through my ears.
I lay here, adding up my worst fears.

I have stress gnawing on my fibers
and a cancerous depression leaking through my body.
I bury my face into the firm pillow,
serenaded by sorrow's solemn fiddle.

I'm unsure what to do: to scream or to cry.
I'm running on fumes, too empty to decide.
I think often, but I find no release.
The silence, apart from the rain, is closest to peace.

What hath thy wrought?
I cannot understand what or how to feel.
I'll toss and I'll turn in utter frustration,
knowing that I lack the answers to my deep contemplation.

You may question if you be so bold,
but the answers I've given have already been told.
So, now I lay, in my uncertain blight,
hoping for another chance towards that beacon of light.

sometimes to forgive can be hard to do
forget about the past and start again a new
the things that made you hurt still inside your mind
sometimes it his hard to leave it all behind

sometimes to forgive can help you to move on
forget about the past its already gone
it will ease your mind take away regret
help you start again help you to forget

The smoke of a cowards heart
   snuffs out the flame
     leaves no chance for a spark
Swirls and dances with the vision
  of the lost chance of a first kiss
And haunts with the question of
  what mite have been
My eyes are burning and I'm
  choking on doubt
And I can't stop fanning the embers
  deep inside a cowards heart

i don't know
i don't know
i don't know

Then who does?

The waters of the seas I wandered in,
seemed calm, the shores sounded peaceful,
I yearned to walk in their sands.

But I floated between waves that lulled me into sleep,
And I floated between waves that moved me into tears,

But now, I know I have deviated from my path
I must searched for a northern star
I need to be guided
onto the right path

And for that,
I mustn't walk on the sands of the shores I once yearned to walk.

i have loved
deep and raw
before
when my eyes were bright and eager
and i know that
i know now that
i know nothing