lil: Poems

Oct 2021 · 310

firsts

lil Oct 2021

firsts

so this is what it feels like to be so happy
im sorry i took so long
first kiss at a green light isnt too bad
is it the indie wish your heart desired?

this is the first time i was able to picture the face behind the lips, i want to see you again but i know you are sleeping right now

#happy

May 2020 · 156

controllable variables.

lil May 2020

controllable variables.

pink and purple paint my eyelids
glitter touches the corner

i go to the bathroom
stand and take a photo
trying to be beautiful
for people who are not worth it

overcompensating
trying to find the feelings
that i haven't felt for nine weeks

May 2020 · 104

Untitled

lil May 2020

Untitled

i cried for the first time in a while
i held my face
in my own hands
and let the loneliness seep in
wondering when my hands will be someone else's

i don't know
how do i feel better
from six feet of distance

Apr 2020 · 198

do you regret it?

lil Apr 2020

do you regret it?

i am not ashamed of the parts
you saw of me
you should be ashamed
of what you did with them

they always take pieces of my soul and release them to the world. they were meant just for you.

#sad #soul #love

Apr 2020 · 173

error 404 looking for connection

lil Apr 2020

error 404 looking for connection

just keep telling yourself
everything happens for a reason
in hopes that
the numbness
and longing
for connection
fades
i was stupid for thinking you could help me with that problem

yes these are all about the same person:/

#teenage #connection #quarantine #love #youth

Apr 2020 · 171

red flags

lil Apr 2020

red flags

you only talk to me at night
red flag they say
you can't see the difference between flags when the lights in your room are red
you only send me pictures of your face
no words
no response to my words
i can't see the red flags
and even if i could
i would pretend i couldn't

#ugh #teens

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