forgive me Father, for I have sinned.
I have stolen, lied and cheated.
I've lashed out at those that did not deserve it
and praised those who put themselves on a pedestal.
Yet, my most awful transgression
was self inflicted suffering.
I let others steal from me.
Lie to me. Cheat on me.
Let them break every bone in my body
And stomp me into the ground.
But I didn't mind..
I cared for them.
Be they friends, lovers, or enemies.
I only wanted them to love me.
To be proud of me.
So I let them destroy... everything.
I am disgusted at myself.

Cicadas song buzzes loudly
Beneath the half moon.
Bait fish flicker quickly
While the stream flows slow.
Wind blows the trees more gently
In their creaking, wheezing whisper.

The owls watchful eyes gleam down.
Mice scurry beneath the fields cuttings.
Deer walk with their head up,
Tasting the air with their nose.

Night drones on,
The sun, asleep
It's lover, vigilant, and dutiful.

Only within darkness
Can our truth shine
Behold we are the candle

We are one laugh
From many tears.

They say I slept like  
I was in a shallow grave,
Still warm, but rigid.
eyes glazed over..

I tried to wake myself up,
But as I looked down,
Chills evaporated through me.

I slept like death, my pillow
A grave stone of dreams.
Tucked in beneath the
Shallow entombment
of slumber.

Yet, upon my resurrection,
I feel like I’d never even
Sewn my eyes shut.
As sunlight seers my retina.

I walk into the light, dead on my feet..

Thursday-July 3rd- 2:53-passed away-

I'll always love you--
even though your gone,
I love you to infinity and beyond.
🐕🐶❤️😢