Heart pounding,
Mental sirens sounding

I want my brain to numb,
But I don't drink ***

Chest lurch,
Screams go unheard

The tornado in my head swirls,
It wrecks my dreams and hopes

I try to cover my ears,
Replying with a 'nope'

I am refused,
It doesn't stop,
Wrecking,
Wrecking
Wrecking
Screaming
Shouting
Ruining

Out­side I nervously tap my pen,
Putting on a brave face,
breathing in deep

Skin and bones,
She'd break with stones.

Starving for perfection,
Dreading her rejection.

Paper thin,
Brittle winter sins.