It hurt.
Incredibly bad.

A stab to my heart, that I didn't think was there
You wanted me to feel something

After being numb for so long
I don't think this is what you had in mind

I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment
I don't know why you stay-

I'm not good enough.
I'm not passionate enough.

I'm not enough.
I'm me.

I have such a heart for love
I always has- I've always loved everyone

But I don't show it.
I never have.

I'm not good at expressing feelings
Even today- when you poured your heart out

All I could do was stand there..
I can't speak.

I'm mute.
No opinion in this

No opinions
Not when it comes to "us"

No, no not this time
I've always bent at the will of others

Said what they wanted to hear
Said what I thought I felt

And I just got lashed for it
Bubbling red skin

I will stay me this time
You
Can
Not
Change


ME

Emptiness filled her soul that day
Tired and beaten down
She ignored the world that day

As the light faded outside her window
The darkness falling
Bringing the darkest of thoughts to her mind

As her family lay peacefully sleeping
The full force crushed down on her chest
She lay in her bed tears rolling off into her hair

Her lips pressed to her teeth by a shaking hand
To stifle the sobs trying to escape her stomach
Now filled with an entirely new emptiness

She lay in her bed
Alone with tormenting thoughts
And she sank herself