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Silver Lining Nov 2013
In gym class we were playing hokey.
I was fighting for the ball when I was tripped
by a boy's stick. I fell and let out a scream.
I broke my wrist as I hit the ground.

I did not cry.
I would not cry.
I kept playing.

A few minutes later, I was fighting with a different
boy for the ball.
He went to slam the ball, but got my ankle instead.
Almost three months later- it's still bruised.

I did not cry.
I would not cry.
I kept playing.

In elementary school- I played kickball with the boys.
If someone got hurt and cried-
"Quit being such a girl. "
Would be the concensous of the group.

In high school when someone gets hurt
And they limp slightly, or sit out
"Quit being such a *****. "
Would be yelled to them.

Why is being "weak" associated with being a girl?
Why is crying, associate with weakness?
Why do people belittle others for crying?

I've never wanted to be weak.
So I stopped crying.

But here I'll stay-
Letting the water beat the girl out of me.

And I'll keep playing.
I don't know what to title this..
Silver Lining Nov 2013
A poem a day
Keeps myself away.
Silver Lining Nov 2013
I write when I am at a loss of words.
When I don't know how to express how I feel.
When I can't tell someone why I'm crying-
Because I don't know myself.

When I am at a loss of emotion..
I write music.
I pound away on the piano.
Which I find funny because-
I've never taken lessons.
I can't read the music.
I feel it instead.
Replacing emotion with music so I'm not so-
Utterly empty.
Silver Lining Nov 2013
The formalities of the world
They tell us how long we have to know
Another person
For us to love them

It creates a complex.
What if that's why there is so much hate
In the world
People are afraid to love eachother
Simply because of time
Because of fear
Fear of being ridiculed
By those who stick to the formalities
Silver Lining Nov 2013
Just do it already
No..
We both know you'll do it again
Not this time..
Liar
I'm trying
You don't want to be, so why should you?
For them.
They don't care about you
Stop
They don't
It'll disappoint them..
No it won't
How? They'll be so cross with me..
They don't have to know
They'll find out..
Not if you keep your ******* mouth shut
I promised.
So?
A promise is a promise..
They won't know.*
...
You don't deserve them anyway
...
Go ahead..
.. You're right.
Of course I'm right
You win..
*I always do..
Silver Lining Nov 2013
This little razor
Is like an eraser

It wipes my mind clean.

A new pallet.
Room for a new dream
Silver Lining Nov 2013
People pleasers
I am one
Always have been
It's a selfless
Yet selfish
Mind set
I only want others
To be happy
I want people
To be happy
But when will I
Realize..
I AM people
I deserve happiness

Not tonight I suppose..
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