In autumn I found a boy
Who asked me to love him
And said I love you
Only after a party and a few drinks
I was laying in bed
And told my friends about him
They said I hope you're happy
They knew I wasn't

In winter I kissed a boy
Who tasted like alcohol and said
I love you all the time but
He hurt himself whenever I made mistakes
He threatened to leave me if
I didn't do what he said
My friends watched me
They said stay away from him

In spring I spent time with a boy
Who told me it was his way or no way
And when I challenged that
He told me
I love you and that's why I'm doing this
My friends saw the cuts and bruises
They gripped my wrists while I said
I deserve him

In summer I wanted no one at all
And when he walked into my life
I didn't expect to fall
But he kisses like the devil
While keeping all my demons away
My friends held my gaze and told me
Keep him and
Stay

(m.w)

Dark clouds fill the sky
I couldn't see anything
And I especially couldn't think  
I didn't know what to do
They were dark and gloomy days
We were together then
But you always made my day
You gave me a hug then a kiss
You said I smelled like coffee
Because I did

But I was the one afraid
You were the one with confidence
You said you loved me
But it was all a lie

After a while
You started saying I love you
But in reality I never said it back
I always thought that
Is that bad?

I started to lay there
Thinking my own thoughts
On how this could've happened
I just lay there thinking
Most of the time it's sad
The others times I'm crying
Or I'm just thinking

All of those nights that
I lay there thinking
It's because of you
You knew that I did this
But you didn't know it was about you
I'm sorry I kept this
But it was true

You left me for something

That you used to have and now don’t

You were having temptations for her again

But you don’t realize that she doesn’t want you

The only one that actually saw the good in you

Was me

I was the only one that saw it and wanted you

You would always talk about her love

But you never realized that I was never okay

Especially when you say

“’The one thing I want an unlimited supply of for the rest of my life is her love”

You were smiling and I was holding back tears

But you never noticed

I actually thought I loved you but I was always too scared to tell you

I guess you’re just a ******

My friend saw something about me that was good

They made me go after you because they could tell

I’m sorry if I wasn’t enough but

I don’t know what will happen now

You might as well just leave now

Because the one person that wanted you is stuck here

And you get to leave and you won’t even remember us

That’s too bad because I won’t forget anything

Especially when you call me a liar

You know I would never lie to anyone you told

So I’m guessing it’s just “not worth it anymore”

“This isn’t fair to you when I still love her”

Just go away already