I think of call but know its better to stay away
Focused on work and ways to get my bills paid
Meet new hard to replace you with someone new
Only if you knew what I went through to overcome you when I didn't want to do so
Now I'm keeping busy working so much sometimes I get dizzy
Lots of new but your no where to be found
Always will to share with others doing things because I can not because I have to
Hoping to move up find opportunity to take me somewhere better
I'm clearing my mind doing what needs to be done
I don't drink so I seen as no fun
Sleep deprived still on the go others will never know

it all can change
a right turn
not the straight

some turns are good
some hurt

your life
made of moments
your precious moments

This kind of sadness overwhelms without an alpha or omega

I went looking today.

I put on my red boots
and my blue pants
and I opened up the doors.

I went looking today.

I went through the parks,
the streets, the empty hallways.
I got lost looking for a lost you.

The crowd carried your scent,
carried me,
and I was six and a half miles from home.

I put on my smiles
and my cloak of courage.
My watch ticked away the time my heart drove my feet to you.

I went looking today.

I went looking for you.

I searched the corners of boxes,
under the shade of rose petals,
and in burning letters.

Because I had to.
I had to find you
before I lost my mind.

My bones ached for the home in you,
my heart refused to keep a beat continuous,
my skin began to come undone.

I went looking for you today,
only to stop before your door
and walk all the way back home

still in want.

I've quit being bad
Because the only boy I want to be bad for
Is you

Its funny,  
You brought out the best in me
But also, the dirtiest bits
Both are sides that only you have seen

Oh what I would do for you
And for no one else
If only you actually knew