Water to quench my thirst
Wine to soothe my mind
A book to consider truth
Another to consider a lie
To be assured or to doubt
That is why I drink the wine
The water is only a curse
Because it keeps me alive

I don’t need to be told
I’ve heard enough
My heart is involved
But is it what I want?
I cannot turn away
I hear howling music
Like wind when it is cold
And the nails that haunt

Bright and steady
Confusion masks itself
How could it be this way
The entrails of an answer
It tells of our failures
How can we be sure
Will we ever be ready
For joy instead of anger?

Only a child can be honest
They will soon learn otherwise
Only facts live in their eyes
But within us there is sin
We teach them that it is so
Because it is all that we know
Chastened we think of a promise
But innocence is not for men

Hey you underneath that hat
I just want to know
Why are you looking at me like that
I’m not gonna’ ask
I don’t want to put you on the spot
But I’ve sent enough hints
For the other shoe to drop

Hey you always walking away
I just want to know
What kind of man makes you stay
I’ll never know
Unless I start acting different
But I have to be who I am
Not always against the current

Hey you waiting for another day
I just want to know
How long do we have left to pray?
It’s too easy to be alone
Beauty is cold in the shade  
A broken heart before we meet
Is not why you were made

Hey you playing in my head
I just want to know
When will you be in my arms instead
I like to think about it
But I need you closer now
Why can’t we just say yes
Is it that we don't know how?

If she ever did fall to pieces
Somebody must have put it back together
The lines separate the times of her life
But she's trying not to feel the changing weather
She only moves forward
Thinking she's finally going to be free
She spends all her time interpreting herself
She thought it's be nice if someone did it for me
She thinks she knows how to be strong
But that's what a loner hides in their mind
How hard is it really to survive
When you won't press your lips to mine?

If I cried in front of you
Would you think I was less than a man
But what if I let you stab my heart without a flinch
Would you think I wasn't human
As much as I care about you
I just can't worry about what you think
I know what I am
I'm trying to let you know
That's what you always wanted
But you won't let me

I don't think it's just in my head
That's just one place for it
If I know it I own it
But I also found it
You can love me out of duty
That's not what I asked for
You can leave anytime you want
That's not an invitation
I thought it only proved I was sane
Except that's not real love
Or is it?

light the fire;
draw yourself near;
is it,
the doorway to hell
or the voice of God;
my heart is on fire,
i release it to you
enter the light,
do not be confused,
yes i cry
it is not enough though,
to burn with a scar;
it is also the ice breaking,
it seethes as it melts;
upon your skin,
rivers of new life,
awakening you;
but look again,
it is blinding you,
blinding you to your past,
to your pain,
it is there no more;
a beautiful story,
of fire, ice and light;
no longer orphaned,
but instead reborn,
in the light that you choose;
of love,
of life,
of me,
of him,
of you

Disguises No More

I don't have to make a change
The desert is always wet
the clouds are always dry
I don't make it happen
The mood figures itself out

There might be a girl walking
Somebody about the lord talking
My car drives back and forth
Trying to decide which one is me
I stopped thinking about where to go

My disguise is laying on the floor
My why's walked out the door
I'm a banjo playing like a guitar
I'm not born to play a certain way

I don't really try to do anything
The first thing in my mind is a story
It will make sense after I'm gone
Somebody might tell me what it means
That's how we get to know each other

I'm not going to duck anymore
The birds gonna fly by either way
Standing still is being part of the action
You can feel a good fire next to a cactus
The distance in the sky is bigger than now

My true self doesn't need me anymore
It became what it never was before
They look the same but it's a different star
The way they move tells time a different way

No one dies today
Only our doubts
No one lives today
Only our souls
Speak if you can
Believe what you must
I will pray upon my heart
and not ancient scrolls

Like a Roman soldier
Who knows the truth
Apart from his people
And those who follow
To choose to walk alone
To know the faith of a bird
It is the life of my heart
Living with joy and sorrow

The is no judgment
For we are the miracle
The mistakes of a stranger
Are the same as mine
It is what I know
The question is how
The spirit is risen in me
Yet still I remain blind

I would cry like a baby
If my child would suffer
I would know then why I live
But why must I leave them
They will grow in time
And I will shrink to nothing
Is it then that a dying man asks
For a new father to save him?