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He’s not on my timeline
He’s made it very clear
His thoughts aren’t linear
No weeks or months or years
Night after Night
It eats from me
A piece of my soul I lose
With every new day I breathe

Its not easy
The world had warned me
It's not breezy
To pursue the dreams you see

Life is not fair
Not everyone can be the heir
This throne is for the brave
Not them who live only to reach their grave

But deep within I know the fights worth it
My heart wants this every bit
For every part of me I lose a new one will take form
For at the end of my pursuit a great man will be born.
I wrote this when i was in dire need of motivation and it seemed to do wonders for me. I hope it gives you the push you need.
You put a smile across my face
You lift me up on gloomy days
You help me keep the dark at bay
I'm unfamiliar with your ways
Somehow I manage to navigate
The twists and corners of your maze
our views, our soul, are all the same
One question snaps me out of daze
"Is love only a twist of fate?"
And if pray so do feelings fade?
Not much longer will we have to wait
To figure out if destiny is just cliché
I know I've found my true twin flame
If u dare to follow ill lead the way...
 Dec 2016 Marcus Bandy
Cali
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 Dec 2016 Marcus Bandy
Cali
I am not a gambler
or a mystic or any sort of
self-righteous prophet
but there are sometimes
these small things
that glimmer with certainty.

Small things that pinpoint
the ****** of everything
in the deep, vast universe
converging on this
slim chance.

Its the sensation that
the words are there
on the tip of my tongue,
dangerously close
to slipping out into space
where you might hear them
and love me,
love me too.
With all my loves
I always tried to put them above
I had been so blessed
But, I failed all of their test
Now looking back
I have become so depressed
Because
I could not pick just one from all the rest
Just one best
Always, I was wanting to see the next beauty
undressed
Looking with these wondering eyes
Never wondering why
or should I say, asking why
The only word I knew was goodbye
Never looking directly into their eyes
I never lied
I sure cannot say it was because of to much pride
I think all I wanted was the moments of what they
could provide
I was never looking for a bride
I was always upfront again I never lied
I question the word I often used
"Tried"
If there was any feelings they were denied
Always needing the next best, something on the side
Never just satisfied
Always feeling dissatisfied
Two words that coincide
I did my best?
Now terrified
Justified
!!
Alone
My room is clean
but there's still dust
The books are put away
but not in order
The sheets are on my bed
but it's not made
The laundry is done
but not put away

My mom would call this Spring cleaning
I'd say it's just me getting better
and she'd tell me they're one in the same
She knows a thing or two about dusty shelves
and cobweb corners
I remember as you stood bare feet
tiptoes on the red linoleum

reaching up to pull
the shade at dusk;

I left before the sun rose
you slept weeks

before realizing
there was no return.

— The End —