chest tightening
palms sweating
mind racing
breathe shortening
skin crawling
anxiety has me in her talons again
and i am victim to her darkness

it’s so much easier said than done
should i stay or should i run
i love you with my whole heart
but why does it feel like i’m falling apart
i know i need to let you go
but part of me cant take that blow
i want to continue to date
but we have to end this before it’s too late

how am i so lucky to have you
waking up next to you
going on long car rides with you
watching movies with you
eating meals with you
falling asleep next to you
what on earth did i do
to deserve a man like you

hatred
fear
resentment
these run through my veins
forgive me if i hurt you
it’s the only way you’ll feel my pain

stranger
in my house
not you
but me
i feel unwanted
undesired
unlovable
in your presence
i feel like a stranger

my love
i hold you close
i hear your heart
beating in your chest
it seems to beat faster
as i draw near
my love i never fear

it’s so crazy how you can think everything is fine one second, but then the next second, everything falls apart.