Take my head to the pillow
Drown me in my sleep
She said
Grow me up
Grow me down
But blindfold yourself
Then look all around
The clock is reaching for me
Dragging me along
I feel so unsteady
She said
Please make me feel tall

So take me home
Unravel me, seep into my bones
Just smother me in time
Weave your words into mine
Hands soft spoken
she said
mind loud to the touch

Take your sorrows
and give it to my dreams
she said
please don't worry, even though i'm cracking at the seams
just give me your love and i'll give you mine
i'm breaking down, crumbling up
i thought i told you i was fine
she said
time is gone

You can't make a wish off of a mascara clumped eyelash.
Using tears and chocolate to make up for the absence of people in your life.
You are woven into your bed, watching inspirational Netflix movies.
Feeling welcome into the arms of every teen angst indie film.
It ends.
You’re alone.
You take a sip of the 5 day old room temperature water
Sitting on your bed stand
Up comes a ring of wood with the cup.
Rub your grease caked face.
Think about showering.
One more show.
Tomorrow you plan to run.
Eat healthy.
New life, new you.
Wake up, run 2 miles.
Think about becoming raw vegan and a marathon runner.
Go buy fruits and veggies.
How do people live without bread?
Let veggies go bad.
Too hung over to run the next day
Start again tomorrow.
Don’t start again tomorrow.
Go get fries and shake because you deserve it.
Determine you’re ok with becoming morbidly obese
To the point of immobility.
Open backpack.
See laptop.
Repeat.

Finding a balance between the reality I’ve built for myself, and the reality that is real, is the hardest thing that I have yet to do.

Twinkling
Down on us, we dance
Stepping, like the ground would crumble
Beneath us, waltzing
around bullets, blindly trying
to root into our vanishing
souls
adrift in the night sky
Seeking a moonlit
Path, that would lead us swiftly off
The celestial, punctured stage
Flickering

Lost are my eyes in your heart
Like waves crashing down
I don't know where to start

Lost is your heart
in my mind
Like the love so hard to find

Your smile's like the stars
unknown to where they are
You're love's like the sea
just waiting for me

But I'm like the wind
Just trying to run away
I always come back
But I don't know where to stay

And your love's like a blanket
when it gets to hot
I've just got to step out
gather my thoughts

Because you drown me in love
And i can't keep up
I'd rather sit at the bottom
gathering dust

200 Years from Now
Will our tweets be published as great literature
Will the art of the selfie
be mimicked in art classes
Will there be art classes?
Will likes be the only means to true satisfaction
Will we learn to be more than just copies?
Will we enjoy the great wonders of the world
without having to prove we were there?
Will we mean anything to each other
other than how we look on a screen?
Will we find ourselves?

Hands grasping
in dark empty space
Slipping on the edges
of nothing

Another body falls into your grasp
To where, I don't know
The more love you take
from me
the less
 I understand

The more love you take
from me
the less
I know where I stand
What happens to me
at the end of
my existence?

Falling blindly into dark despondent nothing
Clawing to grasp anything real

Tethered six feet under the ground