i am envious
of what you have,
but not
of who you are
regardless,
it withers me
instead of watching
your garden grow, even if
i find it
utterly dull;
perhaps,
i should start digging up
the earth in my own,
neglected plot
and observe
what becomes
I often find myself wanting what someone else has, especially if I feel they are "unworthy." I wrote this to express that feeling and attempt to correct + redirect my negative, unhealthy thoughts. Why not give all that energy and attention to my craft and see what grows?