The last time I kissed someone
Was almost a month ago
And all my happiness is fake
Can someone
Anyone
Just hold me
And kiss me
And then sweetly
Make love to me

Until it all goes away
Forever and ever
And then I can be happy
For once in my life

You bottle everything up
Until the last moment
And something as simple as
The Notebook
Happens
And you wish you could have that love

You sit there with silent tears
Scared to death
That "larger than life love"
Will never happen to you

Don't you hate staying up late
When you're all alone
With your thoughts
And your regrets
And you don't have anything to drink
Or anything to smoke
So you just sit there
Laying on your back
Feeling the stray tears
Slide down the sides of your cheeks
And into your ears

It's hard to smile
Sit still and be quiet
When all you want to do
Is throw your phone across
The room
Let it break into a million pieces
And have the person you love
Hold you
And whisper "I'm sorry"

I find myself thinking of
Him
How he still loves me
And how Rays dad
Stepped on Rays foot
And threw Rays phone
Across the room
And how broken feet
And cracked screens
Don't compare to
His heart.

I watched you and HER
Dance
Mess around smiling
Laughing

All I could think of
Was how funny it was
That I can know you so well
And then suddenly
Not know you at all.

And I just want to touch her
Hold her
Kiss her
Because even though she is
Officially mine
I still feel like she is the
One that I'll never have