I keep thinking
if I could just go back
But I can't go back
I can't ever rewind time
And I cry when I realize
Just how far back I'm stuck
In the past.

I laid there in her arms and-
All I could think about was
How good she smelled and-
Her hand holding my shoulder
Moving up and down my arm and-
Her chest rising and falling
Beneath my ear and-
I couldn't wipe the nervous
Smile off my face and-
I don't have complete thoughts around her and-

I threw her drunk *** onto the ground by her hair
Got on top of her
Her hands hit my arms
But didn't hurt at all
I punched her face
One
Two
Three
Stand up shaking

All it took was
Two days
To get her to leave her boyfriend
For me

What's wrong with me

Haven't felt butterflies
In two years
I've been a truly dead wasteland
For almost a year
But when she smiles at me
It's like my whole body becomes
*alive

She's so
Perfect
Sublime
I want to eat her up
Make her mine
Let her love me
And love her well
Take her to a fancy restaurant
And give her the world

They say breaking
up is the hardest part.
It isn't if you don't care.