August 22, 2015

Hold me

In the midst of cold air and rain we sat beside each other
I put my head on your shoulder;
closed my eyes--savoring and holding
to each second of this moment

After a while

You held my hand;

And suddenly my breathing stopped and
my heart skipped a beat,

I felt a tingling in my stomach and
my heart is pounding and unstable;

Your skin on mine felt comforting and just;
your hand on mine felt like it was made
for each other--like it was meant to be
held by yours.

And for the first time in my life I felt,
that time stood still and stopped,
The noise became quiet and everyone faded,
Like there's nothing.... But just
the two of us

"Is this for real?" I utter, and as I open my eyes
I saw you beside me and your hand
in mine;

And I wished for you to hold me,


For always,
*And never let go.

August 29, 2015


You kissed me,
And I thought I was driven
To a place iv'e never been before.

You hugged me,
And all of my broken pieces
were squeezed back together.

Suddenly all of my pain faded
And I said to my mind,

*"Hanna, I love you..."

December 31, 2015

From the moment you stand
and walk from the bus
I saw you outside the window;
standing; your hair was firm
and your eyes were searching

And I looked up,
saw that you faded.
And as I return my eyes to nowhere
I once think,

How much I love the
way you walk
and the way your shadow beams
How much I love the way
your eyes lit up and see;

How much I love you,
And how much
I look forward to

the day
*I'll see you again.

September 4, 2015

"I always want to thank you for what you've given me.
Time is still long, i'm not sure if you'll still be by my side in the years
that will come, or whether you'll get tired of me too.
But right now, all I want to say is thank you...
*For the every minute and hour you've always given me."

June 30, 2015


You were once a stranger to me before
A person I usually see;
Someone I barely talk to.

But why do I suddenly
find myself longing for your presence?
Why do I suddenly notice how
your eyes widens when a joyful word
slips from your mouth?

Why am I suddenly wanting to see
your smile all the time?
And why am I sitting here
finding myself missing you
*and your smile?

August 4, 2015


Out of reach

I saw you from afar
And iv'e never felt
this urge to kiss someone
and tell them
*"You are wonderful."

July 8, 2015


Thank you
For with you my gleam
and gray days turned into fairy tale;
For with you,
My pain is at ease,
And I can finally breathe again
*Thank you.

You are my home,
Shelter of my strength,
The ones I keep coming back to,
Zone of my comfort.

July 19, 2015


"You deserve to be with the best, and I am not the best for you. You deserve someone who is prudence and just, not someone like me who is messed up and ****** up. You deserve to be happy. And I will always be happy for you.... Even if it's not me who can make you happy--but someone else."


Good bye, Hanna
Ease my pain
For I will endure
the days that i'll see you,
*loving somebody else.

October 25, 2015

What in the world did I do to have someone like you?

You are my light,
The reason why I live and survive
You were my strength;
The reason why I look forward
To every sunshine

The reason why I find happiness in
every moment;
The reason why my hope
in this cruel world is built.


*What in the world did I do to have someone like you?