To run away
From what's inside
Will not remove
All ones doubts

One may travel
Far and wide
But cannot escape
From inner self

Stay awhile
Think what's good
Make a move
To be alright.

Raining hard
More and more
Stronger now
Cat ran in
Soaking wet
Making straight
For my food
Cleaned my spoon
Of all the egg
Ran away
With the shell
Where it is
I do not know
Because I write
As it is
And can't look
Other
Than my book.

Of what I dream
You know full well
Of what you dream
I haven't a clue

Of what I am
Is something clear
Of what you are
Is something out there

Of what I sense
Is something so good
Of what you sense
Is well away from me

Of whom I love
Is someone like you
Of whom you love
It is not me.

Maybe tomorrow
Could be sorrow
But , today is joy
And if it could be
Let it be for sure

Maybe tomorrow
Could be sorrow
Today is my joy
And if I love you
Stay around some more

Maybe tomorrow
Could be sorrow
Today is our joy
When I talk with you
I'm asking for more

Maybe tomorrow
Could be sorrow
Today is my joy
Maybe not tomorrow
Maybe not at all

I love you in every way
I want to squeeze you tight
Right throughout the night

All over and around
I love to hear your sound
I want to love you tight
Hold you with all my might

Keep me in your arms
Fill me with your charms
Never throw me away
Don't ever stop your play.

Learn to love
Learn by doing
It's so good
Learning by doing

Learn to hold
Learn by doing
It's so nice
Learning by doing

Learn to kiss
Learn by doing
It's so sweet
Learning by doing.

Why are you trying
To steal my heart
You're in for trouble
Plunging in the dart

I'm not really ready
For a consuming love
Hold off for a while
And slow down ,you dove

You know that I like you
A wonderful friend for me
But give me some time
I need it, can't you see.

Is there any sense
In anything we do
Is it so stupid
Anything at all

Please please tell me
I know nothing
Nothing at all

Why should people die
Shot through the head
Is there any reason
For barbaric ways

Please please tell me
I know nothing
Nothing at all

Is there a just cause
For bombing towns
Is it for self ego
Or to pass away the time

Please please tell me
I know nothing
Nothing at all.

It's incredible
I love you
After all
It's only you
But , not only you
It's you

It's amazing
All you are
After all
It's only you
I know I said it
But it's true

All this time
I've ignored you
After all
It's only you
You've got me
Through and through

I can't believe
I want you
After all
It's only you
I'm so happy
I've got you.

I'm terrified
Terrified
Of loving you
It'll only
Break my heart
Something
I shouldn't start
But do
What you must do

I'm frightened
Frightened
You'll goosebump
My brain
Drive me
Completely
Insane
I'm scared
But do
What you must do

I'm worried
Worried
Of this
Knifes edge
Balancing
Making me
Dizzy
By the day
I have caution
But do
What you must do

No I'm not
I'm not not not
I'm not finished
I've just started
I'm going to go
From strength
To strength
And more
I insist
The world
Must
Must hear
Must read
Must know
Of my work
It must

I cannot
Let go
I must
Fight
I must
Suffer
I must
Struggle
I must
Despair
Then rise
Rise
Above it
The poverty
The jeers
The OH yessirs
I will
Do it
Yes
I will
I'm crying
But
Not crushed

Your rhythm
Has no blues
Your pie
Is in the sky
Your dreams
Have no pipe
Your bridges
Are not crossed
You look
After you leap
Your stitch
Is out of time
Your iron
Is never hot
You are all of these
But baby
I like your style.

How ferdly werdly drunk am I
Well I'm not , I'm just decrepit
I'm shaking my head at my work
I hope one fine day here where it's nice , I'll be good
It's PENALTYPITSTOP

Who is this scraggy scruffy person
This woe begone urchin of words
This so called writer of poetry
Who cannot write for pregnant toffee
Who always thought of riches in pocket
But now has to eat those wastely words
No good will ever become of this work
Let penaltypitstop ride her nonsense

Who is this , I'm it penaltypitstop
Well I may indeed very well truthfully say
It is me !

Coming into his station
Slowing right down
There he is standing
Outside my window
He gives me a smile
I give him one back
He's moving slowly
Towards the door
I sit remembering
Our bursting lust
Spread every where
Day after lovely day
No end in sight
I move my tight fist
Nails of a hornets bite
I touch the seat
I turn to my left
And gaze at emptiness
A cascade of tears
Avalanche down
My crumbling face
Trying to form icicles
On my wobbly chin
My great sob
Shattered the silence
Of the carriage.

You had no right to leave me a note
Such a cheapjack note of betrayal
You wrote in your measly sly note
And I quote with tears streaming
'You no longer belong to my heart'
How dare you say that your lover
Is no longer worthy of your heart
And further more, my strong anger
Is , because worst of all
You **** well beat me to it.

I stood
Where?
I stood
Where he had stood
Some moments before
I savoured his manhood
I let it wildly engulf me
I let my mind explode
With just gone passion
My hands clasped together
Kissing his muscular air
It will be soon again
I'll be swept off my feet
I know I'm impatient
For this splendor called love.

Back into our first love
Is where I want to be
Your smile in my eyes
My smile shining back
Our hearts are as one
Is where I want to be

My tingling lips await
For yours upon mine
Making my heart glow
With a love so strong
That I will surely burst
Oh my love, my love

It will not be so long now
For our arms to entwine
Caress , oh sweet caress
Will be ours to share
Every hour of our day
Back into our first love.

It's him
I know it
It is , it is
Let it be him
That swaggering
I'm it walk
That dinky great
Ginormous smile
Just like mine is
Right on now
Our smiles
A mere breath away
They've intermingled
Already across air
Like this knee shaking
Is really kissome
The kiss lovenly
Welding our lips
He taught me how
He's so very good
We taught each other
Our love making
We love each other
But not now in love
TONIGHT !
TONIGHT !
YIPPEE !

Pay attention everyone said Lilliput
I have an important announcement
We're going to have a wonderful picnic
For our family on Thursday , poppits only
The groans were heard all over the palace
Are we riding there , asked Horsey Anne
No we jolly well are not
And you scrum half Zara , are not either
We're motorcading it , without staff
Another really loud royal moan
We are each taking everything we need
And that includes you ex pork of York
'OOHH NNOO' she gurgly grunted
Less of that , and NO toe suckers allowed
Nor arrive in a kiddies helicopter either
And you Wills missus more clothing
You make my  blue blood run cold
Next Thursday then , you picnickers

What have you brought asked Lilliput
Silver knives and forks hoarsed Anne
Paper plates grunted Flossy Fergie
Plastic cups , whimpered Wills missus
Lav paper for tissues, gidded up Zara
Big tablecloth bellowed Camilla
Have none of you brought food said Lilliput
'NO' they all mardily whinnied
None of us even thought about it

And you mumsy H.R.H. what have you brought

'NOBODY questions me , you pipsqueaks
LET'S ALL GO HOME NOW !

That I should not write anymore
Or do you think that it doesn't matter?

I think that I
Should not
Write poems
That
Upset people

Those tears in your eyes
Showing , deep sorrow
Glistening with pain
Trickling down your face
Dripping off your chin

Your great shudder
Every now and then
Quivering of your lips
Eyes rolling in anguish
Not wanting to see

Your need for comfort
So very plain to view
There's nothing I can do
Because
You are my reflection.

Another day for Jonathon James
Eyes open in tiny smokey slits
Hoping , all day will stay in gloom
One drink did this to his head

Yeh one more drink than eight
Just one little drink couldn't wait
To split his stupid ***** head
Chaining him to his lazy bed

He dares not smoke his last cigarette
In case he coughs away his heart
And his fat head leaves his body
Looking up from beneath his bed

Ha has to make a few little steps
He has a crying desperate need
When he does , he'll feel so dizzy
But away from his bed he must go

He needs to build his caffeine level
But wonders how it will be done
Then he turns to the noise at the door
And in comes coffee on a tray

He and his girlfriend Joanna May
Sit up together slurping away
The day's getting better and better
Another day for Jonathon James.

First was my eldest sister
Of what , I knew not
She cried and cried
I could do nothing
No , nothing at all
And I didn't know
My elder brother
He cried a lot too
What's happening
Stepfather calls
They both enter
The bedroom
Then it's mine
Yes my turn
He was bare
He made me
The very same
No , please no
It really hurt
And I cried
And cried
What have
I done
So bad
So bad
For this
This pain
Two years
Next brother
Two years
Next sister
Two years
next brother
Two years
Next sister
Yes , we all
Witnessed
Every time
Mother !
Always at work
Nights
And I
Yes I
Did nothing
NOTHING
I did nothing
To stop it
Next
My children
Oh yes
My children
I hate
My children
I see them
In my guilt
Of doing
NOTHING
Hurts hurts
Loo problems
I said
Husband did it
But
He did not
He didn't even know
I told his mother
I told the doctor
He did it
They both said leave him
So in my mind
His fault
Get rid , get rid
He knew nothing
But he had pain
I made sure of that
Because
Looking at him
Made me feel
GUILTY
When
My stepfather died
I cried and cried
Why oh why did I cry
Though not with joy
I still wonder why
He made me rely upon him
He scared the hell out of me
His whisky made him worse
I even bought him presents
Trying to curry favour
Why, why, why , why
I don't know how
He's put
Something
Very strange
In my mind.

Trees centralize scenes
Rivers flow over pebbles
Ever bright the sky
Even sharpen my blue eyes
Sight to be held close to heart
....
Water is hidden
Autumnal sense of being
Trees magical colour
Eternal life abounds here
Ready to be heartfelt now
....
Winds about to blow
Ice and snow follow quite soon
Never without gloom
Deciduous leaves sish sashing
Soon enough for sights delight.

Hutch hopped about
Foraging as usual
Sundance stealthily
Crept towards her
Hutch sensed danger
Turned this way and that
Wrinkling her nose
To test the breeze
But did not detect
Her murderers crouch
Sundance sneaked
Towards a **** position
Getting ready to pounce
Hutch twitched her nose
Oh no , she thought
I'm being stalked
Sundance leapt into space
That's all he had
Hutch had gone.

You said these words
Penelope , I am but a fool
Darling I love you
Though you treat me cruel
And you said mushily
You hurt me and made me cry
And if you leave me
I will surely die
(thanks to Paul Anka for these words)
Now you know you little sniveler
That's not true
Cos I did leave you
And I was planning
All my black stuff
Extremely fetching
For your funeral
It's just like you all do
Promise this
Promise that
You little liar
'I will surely die'
Much more like
I will surely drink
Sing to another.

Paul , I've made a small error

Oh  Paul , you have been misled
When I made you cry so much
That was just a little test for you
'Little sniveler' How cruel was I
I cannot live without you now
My cup for you overflows
My unseemingly pretense , not fair
You are my world , my everything
(thanks whoever for the last line)
How could I have tried to let you go
How very silly , the episode was
I'll be in your loving arms soon

Oh by the way
Congratulations
Upon winning the Euro millions

Lovers betwixt heart and when
Every moment with you
Tis like a teardrop astray
No telling its quiet demise
My lips dare touch yours
As indeed , favour returned
When next , my handsome beau
So much I need to renew
Now time is in such disarray
We know not our next caress
We can but make a lovers tryst
And hope our love entwines again.

Freddy
Really
Ending
Dreams
Daily
Yours

Are
No
Different

Hopes
In
Safety

Not always
Allowed
In
Lost
Souls

All
Ready
Everyone

Wait
Awhile
I'm
Turning
Into
Nastiness
Grotesque­ly

Of what I dream
You know full well
Of what you dream
I haven't a clue

Of what I am
Is something clear
Of what you are
Is something out there

Of what I sense
Is something so good
Of what you sense
Is well away from me

Of whom I love
Is someone like you
Of whom you love
Tis not me

Dreaming is a waste
Beats me right down
Dreaming is a waste
Of my broken heart.

Who would believe it
Just as I had finished the hard work
Of , earnestly sharpening
My nearly ready guillotine
Also washing my scruffy neck
For a really clean cut
Suzybloodywordmuse
Praises my sodding work
Well ! I ask the whole wide world
What on earth do I do now
First I'll have to blunten it
You know , just in ****** case
I'll catch a rolling stone
And sing to it lovingly
After that I'll write some more.

Where were you yesterday
I was in the woods with Jimmy
And what were you doing there
Well first he asked me to take my knickers off
Did you
Yes I did , he has such a nice smile
Did you see his thingy
What's a thingy
Have you never seen a thingy
How could I have done ,
when I don't know
What on earth is a thingy
Have you any brothers
No , but does that matter
Well you would have seen one for sure
Look if I don't know what one is
How would I know if I've seen one
I'll have to tell you
We don't have one
Because we are girls
O.K. we don't have a thingy
Will we have one each
When we grow up
Ugh ! I don't jolly think so
Who'd want one of those horrid things
Alright you've got my interest in a whirl
What do they do with them
MMM , they use them for wee weeing
Is that it ,for wee weeing
So it's like a hosepipe
Well yes but smaller
Why have they got one
And not we girls haven't
Don't know
I've just realized
Did he take his trousers down
No why should he
Don't know
But why did he ask you
To take your knickers off
Easy , he wanted the elastic
to make a catapult.

'Well I think it's outrageous'
The snow was falling
'What is outrageous'
A snowball wanged past her right ear
'That there is a Santa Klaus'
A large ****** of bells was heard
'Of course there is'
Ten dwarfs strolled past
'Oh no there isn't'
'Jingle bells , jingle bells'
'Stop it , or we'll be'
Jingle all the way'
'Like this all night'
'Hurrah for good old Santa Klaus'
'O.K. maybe there is'
'Hurrah for Christmas day'
'And maybe there isn't'
A woman walked past
Carrying a giant Christmas tree
'O.K. this Santa Klaus bloke'
Followed by a black cat
'Mistake'
'Who does he think he is'
A dwarf said 'hello Dancer'
'Well he's a nice chap that'
She ignored him
'Has white hair all over his head'
But stuck her tongue out
'All over his head , he'll be blind'
A stray reindeer went by
'No not over his eyes, everywhere , but'
Whistling a happy tune
'Sounds like a strange fellow to me'
Two hedgehogs were pulling crackers
'He also has a sled , pulled by reindeers'
A mouse went past on a pair of skis
'Ha Ha .Pull the other one, what does he do'
The coffee bar opened
'Gives presents out , all over the world'
The elves reached their workshop
'Now you're really joking'
And started making presents
" Oh not I'm not'
The fairies started to wrap them
'Oh yes you are'
The octopuses are not in this story
"Stop , stop , stop '
The sled was being filled
'Look I don't believe a word of it'
For millions of children
'But you have to Rudolph'.

Penaltypitstop looks
Pretty ha ha, a joke
No ! , penaltypitstoplooks
Out to the great outdoors
Through the kitchen window
Almonds in glorious bloom
Majestic Cyprus at attention
A huge don't know what
Others lurk here and there
Blue sky with a hint of cloud
BUT, and this is a big BUT
Sheeps , yes , yes many sheeps
A German friend thinks
Sheeps is the plural of sheep
Oh well , words are words
These sheeps are not allowed
To be seen , out of my window
Someone without sense
Has left ,A ****** gate open
I'll get changed into 'Superwoman
RIGHT , here I am, and there they are
GONE !WHAAAAAT, I checked
Some kind person , has flocked them back
PHEW !

They're coming, they're coming
Running, jumping, and floating
Zooming, racing and abseiling
JUST A DOGGARN MINUTE
These are not for sleeping
They're are not very woolly
And not going over fences
They're going into my mind
What are these varmints
I know , yes , I know
These are words, sentences
Paragraphs , and silly ideas
But they'll not help me to sleep
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Always doing things
Hand up my skirt
Down my best knickers
Inside my lovely bras
In fact !
At it forever
It'll never ****** stop
But !
The strange thing is
And so disappointingly
He doesn't do it daily
Only !
When they are on my line.

It's not you I mourn
But the loss of your desire
You used to hold my eyes with yours
Then you had to forgo your love
Of which , I foolishly tried to regain
A love that you had cast aside
I realize now to recaptivate your heart
Was not a wild dream , but a futile one
I looked for every cause, that it could be
I  tried to blame it on evil tongues
But now , I thankfully know, that you
Yes you, Could not bear to hurt me more
By saying to me,
'You no longer belong to my heart'

Whoever you are
Whatever you are
Wherever you are

Is there any sense
In anything we do
Isn't it so stupid
Anything at all

Please please tell me
I know nothing
Nothing at all
Why is it so ?

People do die
Many many shots
Fired through heads
Is there any reason
For these barbaric things

Is there any just cause
For bombing towns
Is it for a self ego build
Or to pass away the time

Please please tell me
I know nothing
Nothing at all
Why is it so ?.

Could you dream
Your way into my life
Could you
Climb into my awaiting heart
Could you live
With trembling moments
Could you try
To calm me down
Could you go
To almost any length
Could you take
My rough and smooth
Could you give
When I don't deserve
Could you feel
My great intent
Could you cope
With my ups and downs
Could you read
My great many poems
If you could
I would be yours.

The blue mixed with the green
Then changed to vivid pink
The colours were colours but not
To be defined
was an impossible task
Colours changing forever changing
Yellow , gold , green , blue ,violet , and orange
Swirling , whirling in random complete
One look, another at this changing scene
There was he , so fleetingly there
Gone to be replaced by something bizarre
Changing shapes and colours around
Does not overtake me in despair
It's so wondrous this amazing scene
In this rainbow of various hues
Will I wake up, I hope not
Let me see this unconscious dream.

As I write this
Tears
Tickle my eyes
Just heard
And seen
All by myself
I blow a cool blow
I shake my head
In wonderment
Escaping tears
Running down my cheeks
Her song
Is still inside
I don't want
To let go of this song
I need
Oh yes
I need
To hear it again
So I shall.

Father
He's leaving us today
Going to a place
So very far away
I must say goodbye to a friend
He's now waiting for me

I know there's no need to hurry
It'll take more than just a moment
But I have to speak
For my very own intent
I must say goodbye to a friend

Soon he'll be only a memory
Someone whom was so dear
A very special friend
Of that I'm very clear
I must say goodbye to a friend

It'll take some time to do it
Not in a great big rush
Many , many things to say
In a way full of much
I must say goodbye to a friend

I've known him for a long time
Ever since I was born
He's been quite a man
Someone I couldn't scorn
I must say goodbye to a friend.

Walking through clouds of love
Over fields of happiness
Along rivers of rippling laughter
Smiling like the sun in the sky
My journey through my world of life

Will this road of beautiful thoughts
Last through growing of giant trees
Endless rainbows of colourful ideas
Of meeting layers of wonderful people
Seesawing through their world of life

Clinging to the ceiling of fun
Helping myself to fruits of joy
Watching whirlpools of minds at work
Sometimes floored by sheer delight
Swinging through my world of life

Sparring against deep depression
Soaring above my plight of rejection
Hoping with a lifting heart
I'm breaking out of my fragile shell
Waking up to a better world of life.

Today I was walking
Away from the café
Of internet usage
Where one can't get a coffee
When I saw a good friend
Without his cancer ridden wife
Who is wheelchair bound

He gave a big smile to me
Of which I readily returned
Somehow though he'd shrunk
Not quite his normal self
As we neared, he told me
She had died the other day
In quite a quavery voice
My heart went out to him

I couldn't help but say
'Okay if I hug you'
I did so without awaiting a reply
He said 'You are making me cry'
As I am right now , writing this
But like him, it had to come out.

Wood broken
Steel bent
Life jacket
Broken mast
One intact
Chewed up oar
Part of bow
Some of rail
Looks like keel
Flogged to bits
Was once a boat
Someones joy
The mighty sea
Did not want
This little one
To escape from
Its horrific jaws.

I must get down town
Get my teeth sharpened
To give a nastier bite
Yes a bite to remember
That my victims will not
Oh ! how nice to bite
An evil dream come true
My claws to be done too
Making a loud clash of course
If not , I'll be empty of my music

I have to keep an eye out
For him with the Vorpal sword
I believe , he's my mortal foe
Resting by the Tum Tum Tree
Awaiting to cut me down

I Jaberwocky , with eyes aflame
Like to whiffle along
Through the beautiful Tulgey wood
Bubbling in tune as I happily go
Sensing danger near at hand
Swish , swish , swish went his sword
Sway , sway , sway went my body

But the devil, he ****** well is
Dug , dug , dug, deep inside of me
My green blood Spraying all around
He galloped of without a horse
With my head  held high aloft
But, so much little did he know
That, when night should verily fall
Cronjyceuse will set me right as might.

Load the gun
Unload the gun
Gulp of whisky
Load the gun
Unload the gun
Think of them
Their romancing
Another gulp
Load the gun
Get outside
Stand by the car
One last gulp
Walk to the door
Deep , deep breaths
Break in fast
See them together
Raise the gun
To my temple
Pull the trigger

Some more
Some more
Come to me
I want to see
I want to feel
I want to smell
What it is
You have for me
==========
I can't see
What is there
It's out of sight
I know it's there
But I can't see
A little bit more
Is all I ask=
==========
Come on
Come on
I'll let you in
I want to know
What you have
Closer closer
Now you come
Come into my door
==========
I want to see
What you have
It's not mine at all
Keep it close
To yourself
Never let it part
Save it , save it
Keep it by your side.

My left foot
Is of a hoot
Dancing wild
Like a small child
She's my despair
Not very fair
My twigs wriggle
No, not a giggle
It shakes my bark
Not a funny lark
Leaves go brown
Making me frown
I want them green
For Halloween
I'll have to slap
That young flap
Until she's nice
With good advice
Nows she's done
I'll have my fun
Looking at birds
In their nests.