Everyone have scars that,
they don't want to talk about,
Mine?
they are just on my body,
as well as in my head...

Am I alive or am I dead?
My greatest regrets repeating in my head.
Feeling so empty and cold,
Like a puddle of my own blood,
Forming the Silhouette of a mold.
Wondering if I'll ever be missed?
Trapped in my own darkness..
Lost to the lucidity of my mind.
The depression, a war in time.
Counting down the days left in my life line.
Lost in all these sill rhymes,
Trying to breathe, but no longer living,
Lost all hope.
Lost all meaning.
Confused with what is real.
Saying grace at my last meal.
Counting down the seconds till death.
Watching in hell as they put me to rest.

As I lay here,
And think about all the times,
I ****** up,
Did you wrong,
Made you cry,
Made you feel worthless,
Failed,
Hurt,
Let down,
Yeah, Im worthless...

She saved me in her phone
As "bestie"
But I had her screaming "Ohh"
yo girl wasn't suppose to text me,
If you wanna know how I know what I know!!

The truths now unfold,
The story is now told,
Crying eyes,
Hidden lies,
Just too many goodbyes,

Now it is forever, like before,
But now it's different,
I have closed the door,
Sorry is just a word,
And now all the memories will become blurred..

Mirror, Mirror on the wall
was I always meant to fall?
roses white and dying light
silver's sweet forgiving bite
she'll ask "why"
no answers found
and i'll rot deep
beneath the ground.

Living with depression
is like watching people around you
breathing but instead.

Your blue lips inhale
words of self-hatred
and you know you should
be able to fill
you lungs
with fresh oxygen
like everyone else.

but you can't.

And the worst part is
people mistake your chest
frantically rising up and down
as breathing
when really you're
suffocating.

H:  Hold
O:  On
P:  Pain
E**:  Ends..