i crave for the  blood flow

i cry for the **non-existent love

I made a promise to keep him safe.

9 times worse just in case.

I kept my promise...
I know what it's  like to be lied to...
It hurts, and it's insane...

But i kept my promise.
and i will again and again

A broken mirror,

A bleeding fist,

A sliver blade against a wrist,

Tears falling down to lips unkissed,

Ignore her and she won't exist,

She's not the kind you'll come to miss..

I felt so happy for a while,
I finally felt okay,
But why did I believe I was getting better,
When I knew that I would sink right back into my usual self,
I am bad again,
I am worse then before,
And any hope that I had left,
Is gone.