Diba: Poems

you're no longer here, but i still look for you

Diba Mar 2015

you're no longer here, but i still look for you

you were beautiful you’re like a living breathing sunrise. I loved you immensely. But, I looked at you but there was no fire
I talked to you but there was no conversation
I lay next to you but there was no desire
I kissed you but there was no spark
I looked in your eyes and they said you had lost interest.
And i know you said you would never leave me but it’s been 4 months and you love him.
You love him.
Nights of trying to find remedies for sadness included chain smoking on the roof until i coughed so hard i could feel my heart in my throat spending hours in the shower trying to cut your touch out of my skin
Wide awake at 4 am wishing i would be yours forever, but baby that’s not how things work anymore.

#love #heartbreak #sad #depression #life #pain #death #thoughts #4am

You were a dream i never wanted to wake up from

Diba Oct 2017

You were a dream i never wanted to wake up from

I wish i could go back to the exact moment you fell out of love with me,
i want to pause there so you could hear the sound of my heart breaking in your hands as your tore it out of my chest.
A ****** mess of my love for you
I wish i could go back to the exact moment i fell in love with you,
i would pause there just for you.
I want you to see the way my heartbeats lit up like stars and it didn’t hurt anymore.
I spent my entire life with my heart wanting to stop beating but i didn’t feel that when i was with you.
The stars have been dead for a long time, just the dreams of being with you forever.

#sad #life #love #heartbreak

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