If you close your eyes tight
The tears take longer to fall

Breathe deep
Inhale.....exhale

There....the pain was never there at all

Lately I've been a little moody
I get triggered by comments made
on a video or a tweet or the supposed
leader of our nation spouting his views
on ****** assault victims....

The real victims....men and boys that
are being accused of a horrible act
Innocent yet treated like they're guilty.
Please, don't get me wrong.
Being falsely accused is terrible.
Any one guilty of it should be held liable.

But, after all of the victims, women and men alike
coming forward to tell their stories, he speaks on
behalf of the accused.....Am I stupid for being angry?
What really disappoints me are the people that get upset
when women react to such insensitive views.
They tweet or comment and I try to have conversations
with these people and end up screaming into a pillow!

I walk away wondering if it's worth my time to make
my point of view understood.  
Will I ever change any ones mind?
It's the black lives matter vs all lives matter struggles
all over again!
The argument of should players stand for the anthem!

Why don't people understand that saying black lives matter
doesn't mean ONLY black lives matter, it's a way of saying
Please remember!!!  Black lives matter TOO!  Stop the hate!!!
People of color are being discriminated against and we are tired.
So finally a man decides to protest by calmly taking  knee during the anthem aaaaannnd......here HE comes to manipulate the meaning of it all and makes it about disrespecting the flag and
our troops.  

And don't even get me started on gay rights!  To be treated like
second class citizens is ludicrous!  How fantastically absurd to
be told by your own government that you cannot marry the
person you love! And because life has to be just a little more
unfair the LGBTQ community are at high risk for ******
assault and hate crimes too!    

I realize none of this is new....I guess the Kavanaugh hearing
triggered me and I can't seem to get it off my mind.  I heard
Dr. Ford's testimony and watched as so many people, including
the man himself, come with more and more ****** excuses
and a half *** investigation and in the end he sits on the supreme court any way.  

I'll do my duty....I'll use my voice and vote, but I live in a red
state and I know it's an up hill battle.  One that may be lost.
But I've said my piece.  If you've read through it all, thank you.
If you agree with me, keep fighting. If you don't, I respect your
opinion, but I'll never understand it.

I bow my head in prayer Dear Lord
and I lay at your feet
Those that suffer, those in pain,
Your children that are in need.

Your people that are preyed upon
are crying out in fear
Heed their prayers, protect them,
and all that they hold dear.

Touch the hearts of those in power
for they can end their pain.
With your guidance the sun will shine
and chase away the rain.

Help us to find our courage
to keep fighting the good fight.
May we choose the righteous path,
put aside differences and finally unite.

I have faith in you my God
I know you are the way.
Love can conquer hate this night
and make way for a brand new day.

                                       Amen.

I mirrored your movements
Now my pain is the same
There are no winners
In this foolish game

I followed the leader
Should've gone my own way
When I asked for your help
You had nothing to say

I believed all your lies
Learned the examples you set
At the end of our journey
All I find is regret

So full of excuses
For the life that you've lived
You're  sorry for nothing
Yet ask me to forgive

You don't need my mercy
You need a new way to be
Take a new road
Find a way to break free

These are my last words
They're for you from my heart
The strength is inside you
Go and find your new start

I shouldn't have been there
I better not tell
I shouldn't have dressed ****
I better not tell

I shouldn't have gotten drunk
I better not tell
I shouldn't have laughed at his jokes
I better not tell

It was so long ago
Better leave it alone
I'll ruin his life
Better leave it alone

He shouldn't have drunk so much
It wasn't my fault
He shouldn't have held me down
It wasn't my fault

He shouldn't have forced me
It wasn't my fault
He shouldn't have ***** me
It wasn't my fault

It wasn't just me
I'm not alone
Will he do it again?
I'm not alone

I'll tell my story
It wasn't my fault
I'm not alone

I thought I belonged in your arms
I see now that I was mistaken
You took all I had and never put back
At least not as much as was taken

I stood there empty and broken
You, had nothing to say
I shook as I cried when we said goodbye
Not you, you just walked away

Slowly I picked up the pieces
My heart, just wasn't the same
I played and I lost, payed too high a cost
I, the loser in loves foolish game

The fear brings anxiety
The anxiety brings panic
With panic comes pain

Hope fades away
Depression sets in
guilt becomes your companion

The struggle is real
But it is not mine
She is the warrior

She fights
She reaches out
She crumbles

I watch
I listen
I cry

I am humbled by her strength
I am proud of her courage
I am broken by her sadness

But....I'm here....
For what ever she needs.....always.

Please remind them as they sleep
That they're stronger than they think

Tell them that they make you proud
Soothe their sadness, fears, and doubts

Kiss them gently, hold them tight
Tell them that they'll be alright

Tell them just how much they're loved
By those around them and those above

And one more thing before you go
Don't forget to let them know

That you really are okay
Thank you for the visit and Happy Mother's Day

Thinking Of You

Lately you've been on my mind
I wonder how you've been
Miss you from time to time
I didn't know we were a losing battle
You walked away like our love didn't matter

I fell in love with the man you showed me
And the woman that I became
I learned so much with you beside me
Tell me when did it all change?
You know that I adored you
But my love wasn't enough
You found your home in the arms of another
With out a choice I moved on and gave up

Lately you've been in my dreams
It feels impossible that you would think of me
Never found my happy ever after
If you don't ask you'll never get an answer

I fell in love with the man you showed me
And the woman that I became
I learned so much with you beside me
Tell me when did it all change?
You know that I adored you
But my love wasn't enough
You found your home in the arms of another
Without a choice I moved on and gave up

I had a chance to move on
But I shut down, closed the door
I should've just let you go

I fell in love with man that you showed me
And the woman that I became
I learned so much with you beside me
Tell me when did it all change?
You know that I adored you
But my love wasn't enough
You found your home in the arms of another
Without a choice I moved on and gave up.

He loves me, he loves me not
We're meant to be, or so I thought
My heart is broken, the pain is real
I long for peace, from all I feel

I fake a smile, so no one knows
I mimic strength, lest weakness shows
I refuse surrender, I stand and fight
I must succeed, and so I write

The ink it flows, pours from my pen
It heals my heart, and I can breathe again

Minutes into hours, hours into days
The love I held so tightly, starts to fade away
The pain begins to lessen, the tears no longer fall
Seemed misery was forever but it's not that way at all

Those nights you haunt my dreams
Are now few and far between
When memories overtake me, I know I'll be alright
I know now what to do....and so I write

The ink it flows, pours from my pen
It heals my heart and I can breathe again
Yes, I can breathe again.

Once upon a time
A young girl was broken
She went on with her life
The horrors left unspoken

As she grew into a woman
Something wasn't right
She lacked sweet disposition
Always ready to fight

No one knew of her sorrows
No one knew of her lies
No one made it all better
They ignored all her cries

So she was made into a monster
And she found her prey
Now she was predator
Now she dealt the pain

No heroes are fighting
For our Princess
Instead the cycle repeats
And that's how the sad story ends.

I looked up and there you stood
A sparkle in your eyes
A smirk on your lips
You were as beautiful as I remembered

I looked a mess
Hair in a bun, no make-up
A dumbfounded look on my face
I didn't quite know what to say

You asked how I've been
Said you'd been thinking of me
You missed us
You never asked if I was with some one

I said I've been fine
I wasn't even lying
I hadn't thought of you in years
Still didn't quite know what to say

You asked for my phone number
Said you'd "hit me up"
We should get dinner some time
or maybe I could cook for you

That's when it all came rushing back
The way you used to look at me
when you wanted something
How hard it was to say no

You smiled at me
You actually leaned in
What were you thinking?
That I would allow it probably

I did not allow it
I knew how it would end
Didn't need to relive that episode
I finally knew exactly what to say

"No thanks, I'm good"
"Nice seeing you though"
And just like that...
Your beauty faded

You said "Just thought I'd be nice"
"but what ever, your loss!"
You showed your true self
and it was ugly

I just stood there and smiled
You couldn't hurt me
Not this time
This time I walked away

A skip in my step
A smile on my lips
Dignity intact
As I walked away

Let go, surrender
We'll go, together
Not fast, but slow
I'll show you forever

Your words, not mine
Believed, time after time
Now I've opened my eyes
I see through your lies

No more wasting my time
live your life, I'll live mine
My broken heart still beats
I continue to breathe

I get stronger each day
As the pain fades away
Every moment of pain
Was not suffered in vain

For I will not break
From my past mistakes
I let go of my past....
Find my self worth at last!

Promises kept
Promises broken
Silence so loud
Words left unspoken


Bed feels so empty
Your absence feels wrong
Nights spent alone
Longing so strong

Everything's over
Before it's begun
Why am I lonely
If you were the one

You said goodbye
With the look in your eyes
Yet the words that you spoke
Were nothing but lies

Told tales of forever
Happy endings to be
But your words were illusions
Fairy tales and fantasy

Misery, my company
My world dressed in gray
Steady rain of sorrow
The sun has gone away

Drowning in the sadness
Yet my heart still beats
Suffocating madness
I feel incomplete

Silence so loud
Words left unspoken
No promises kept
My heart is just broken

Promises kept
Promises broken
Silence so loud
Words left unspoken

Every thing's over
Before it's begun
Why am I lonely
If you were the one

You said goodbye
With a look in your eyes
Yet the words that you spoke
Were nothing but lies

You spoke of forever
Happy endings to be
But the story you told
Was pure fantasy

Misery, my company
My world dressed in gray
Steady rain of sorrow
The sun has gone away

Silence so loud
Words left unspoken
No promises kept
My heart is just broken

Secrets...
I have many
Skeletons....
A closet full
I've lost count of my regrets...
Endless array of excuses too

Memories....
I suppress them
Fears....
I push them back
They can't hurt if I don't remember...
Keep it dark, fade to black

Healing....
That's a fantasy
Healthy mind....
A far off dream
I'll never just be "normal"
Happy wasn't meant for me

Acceptance...
Thought I'd achieved it
Forgiveness....
Thought I forgave
Thought I put it all behind me....
Memories coming now in waves

Bits and pieces....
Keep on flashing
Pictures....
Forming in my mind
Wish that door would stay locked tightly
I'm afraid of what I'll find

How....
To keep it locked away
Close.....
The door lock it tight
Put the monsters in the closet....
May they never see the light

Darkness falls and I am free
Hiding in the shadows suits me
I am silent as I walk, look no one in the eyes
I hold no conversations, I am tired of the lies
Cold wind blows, it rustles dead leaves
I stand and shiver as they dance in the breeze
Alone at last, city sounds fade away
Creatures of the night, slowly take their place
I take comfort in their nearness, I can finally breathe
I don't fear the dark, nothing here's as black as me

You left me
You lied
You broke my heart
I cried

You left me
You lied
You used me
I cried

You left me
You lied
All alone
I cried

You left me
You lied
Said you'd return
I waited and cried

You left me
You lied
My tears slowed
My eyes dried

You left me
You lied
I'm okay
Still alive

I will hurt you
I will play you
I will swallow your heart

I can toy with your emotions
I will rip your world apart

Leave you hurting
leave you bleeding
Leave you gasping for breath

Just like some one
Left me reeling
ripped the heart right from my chest

I can't love you, though I want to
Now there's nothing left to say

I'm left empty
Just a dark hole
Where my young heart used to lay

Final warning
I'll leave you mourning
You will end up just like me

Hurting some one else that loves you
And the cycle just repeats

Tender, sweet
he kisses me
Lips touch
shivers much
We're no longer friends

Gasp, sigh
Feeling high
Heart pounds
Love abounds
May it never end

Bare skin
let's begin
Hands explore
wanting more
Point of no return

Rapid breathing
Mind is reeling
Waves of pleasure
beyond measure
Our bodies seem to burn

Pulse slows
Gently doze
Interlace
We embrace
I feel so safe and warm

Hold tight
through the night
Time flies
Sun rise....
and I wake in true love's arms

I'll walk behind you
I'll lead the way
I'll walk beside you
Everyday

When you are frightened
I'll be brave
When you get lost
I'll light the way

When you're lonely
No need to cry
For I am with you
Day and night

I'll see you through
Your every endeavor
I'm with you now
And will be forever

It won't be long now
It will happen soon
I'll be getting over you any day now
I can feel it

That loathsome ache will soon be gone
This feeling of suffocation will subside
I'll breathe again
I'll finally feel at peace

I won't feel that gripping
all consuming fear
The panic that has been my companion
ever since you left

No...I'll be letting all that go
Any moment now
I'll be free....
It's coming

The last bit of you
will soon be gone
No more pain....but..
I wonder....if maybe...

Will I miss you?
When I finally let it all go?
Will I miss it?
Should I just...keep it a little longer?

Perhaps I should still think of you
Only every once in a while....
Just for as bit.
For just a little longer...

A poem by my niece Layla.  She's 10 now and this was a school assignment.  Her topic was Hot air balloon.

                             Look down
                       From way up high
                 The atmosphere crumbles
              Like picnic baskets in the sky
                               Floating

That dress was on sale.
Oh he's just a friend.
I don't care if you're poor,
I'm with you til the end.

It's okay...no really...
I swear I'm not mad.
You're by far the best lover
that I've ever had.

I'm not into looks,
I want a sensitive lover.
Not tonight I have a headache.
I do like your mother!

We have to break-up,
but it's not you it's me.
That dent in the car?
That was there already!

I had a great time.
Hope to see you again.
Babe, you're way better
looking than your best friend.

Size doesn't matter,
it's not that big a deal.
A toupee? You're kidding!
I thought it was real!

McDonald's  is fine
I'm not into money.
Oh at first I didn't get it,
but that joke was funny!

This old thing?  What ever!
This dress ain't new.
It's just a night out with the girls!
Come on, I trust you!

These are lies that are told by bad women.
Silly "****** chicks" playing dumb games.
You would never hear those pass the lips of...
Us intelligent, sweet, classy dames!

my mind is playing tricks on me
I thought I saw your face
next second gone, just like that
not the slightest trace

I must be going crazy
I thought I heard you call my name
but only silence greeted me
is my mind really playing games?

I thought I felt your tender touch
when I turned, you were not there
although goose bumps broke out on my skin
couldn't find you anywhere

you left me, oh so long ago
yet still you're on my mind
you'd think that I'd be over you
living life and doing fine

why then, am I seeing you
feeling your familiar touch?
why then are you haunting me?
why do I miss you this **** much?

I wish I could just let it go
banish thoughts of you away
I wish I could erase it all
or make it so you stayed

but I don't have that power
so here I am alone
hour after hour
trying to make it on my own

my mind is playing tricks on me
for here you are again
like I'm dreaming while awake
when will this madness end?

always the same, you show yourself
when void of company
when no one's here to witness
the way you come to me

perhaps I am going crazy!
it could be worse for me
at least one thing is certain
I won't ever again be lonely

I'll finally have you back again
and life won't be so sad
living in my crazy world
might  not be so bad

I may have lost touch with reality
I may be lost in wonderland
but I've made up my mind, I'm staying
reality will just have to understand

Another poem from my niece Layla.
She gets so excited at the thought of sharing her words.
She is 9 years old and the light of my life.


                    Grateful


You should be grateful for everything.
Everything you have is special.
So remember, always be grateful
For every thing you have.

                            Love, Layla Gross

Just a quick post to say Happy Father's Day to all the dads of HP.
Hope your day was filled with happiness and love.  
May you be blessed.

Dawn still breaks
Waves still crash upon the shore
Time moves on
Life continues just as before

But....
How can it be?
When you're not here!

The sun still sets
A blazing painting in the sky
The moon and stars shine brightly
Breath taking beauty I can't deny

But....
How can it be?
When you're not here!

The world just keeps on turning
The birds still sing their songs
I hear laughter from those around me
They play music and sing along

But....
How can this be?
When you're not here!

Even I betray you
My heart still beats
I miss you more every day
Still, I'm able to breathe

But....
How can this be?
When you're not here!

I don't know the answers
I only know it's true
I suppose that's how it goes
I have to learn to live without you

But....
It's still so hard for me,
Cause you're not here.

I am....pretty.
I am....smart.
I am....kind.
I am....funny too,
but.....I'm not...her.

I am your friend.
I help you in all things.
I put you first.
I make you laugh too,
but....I'm not...her.

I will never be what you want.
I will always be lacking.
I will always be your friend.
Wasting my life waiting for your love.
but...it will never come.

I am strong....
I am worthy...
I am enough...
I'm happy too...
and....I am loved...by me.

I am....ordinary....I cannot boast about any particular talent.
I can sing alright....babies fall asleep when I sing to them.
I can write a little....but if I'm being honest, there's room for improvement.
I'm a pretty good cook....still not the best in the family, but I'm willing to put in the work and learn from the best so jury still out on this one.

I'm not hilarious....my jokes are on the corny side, but I still get a few laughs.
I grew up poor....hell....still am.
Poorly educated....but still a bit articulate....I read a lot.
I'm just a girl from the "wrong side of the tracks"....but I lack the toughness to live up to that title.

I don't want to bore you, so I'll leave it here for now.
Before I take my leave, I should say that I'm okay.
I'm not hating on myself, I'm just saying...this is me.

I'm the chubby friend....okay okay fat friend....always have been.
I'm the girl most guys banish to the friend zone....not sure why I look just like Jennifer Lopez....if you squint your eyes and turn your back on me.  (I told you....corny jokes)
Any way, I digress....I was  saying....This....is....me....and....I kinda like me.

With eyes wide open I take a step
A pounding heart beats in my chest

Fear clashes with tenacity
I fear more a life of mundanity

I must find the strength that's within
A deep breath and so it begins

Today marks the start of my journey
I embark because I am worthy

And....so are you.

I could let the past rest in the past
I could find faith that this time will last
I could be yours once more
I could....but what for?

I could be your perfect lover
I could believe there won't be another
I could believe you're different from before
I could...but what for?

It would just be deja vu
It would end up me with out you
It would send me back to hell
It would...if I fell

It would be a big mistake
It would be so hard to take
It would end in your farewell
It would...if I fell

I could let go of these delusions
I could see through all your illusions
I could realize you're just in it for the thrill
I could.....and I will

I'll leave the past in the past
I'll find faith in me at last
I'll be stronger than before
I'll do this and so much more

I could smile and stand alone
I could make it on my own
I could live a life well lived
I could....and I did

I couldn't march today
but I was with you
I thank you my sisters and brothers
for standing up for what is right

I couldn't march today
but I was with you
In my heart I stood with you all
Fighting for equality

Equality for all
Every man, woman, and child
Black, white, brown....every shade of beautiful
Every religion, or none at all

I couldn't march today
but I was with you
All my nasty women
All men of quality who marched for equality

I couldn't march today
but I was with you
Every child that raised their voice
and marched for their future

I heard you!  
I will not forget the sound of your cry!
I will remember forever the sight
of my sisters and brothers marching....united!

This is only the beginning
That much is true
Let those that oppose us know it!
You let them know today!

I am so thankful for each and every one of you!
For every sign, every battle cry, every step!
For fighting for your rights as well as mine.
I couldn't march today....but you did and I thank you.

From the bottom of my heart
For myself and all who couldn't be there
in body, but stood with you in spirit....
Thank you so much.

I cried today
Because I realized that I
no longer expect you
to walk through the door.

I don't look at the corner
of the back yard
expecting to see you there
working on something.

I don't plan our dinners
based on your favorite foods
or worry over when the food
hits the table.

We eat when we eat
We eat whatever
It really no longer matters
You were the picky one.

I cried today
Because I realized
something that broke my heart....
I'm used to you being gone.

I didn't want to kiss you
I didn't want to melt into you
I wanted to be strong
I wanted to push you away...
But I couldn't

I didn't want to cry
I didn't want to break
I wanted to be angry
I wanted to hurt you
But I couldn't

I was weak
I kissed you back
I cried as you held me
I want to hate you so bad....
But I can't...I just can't

I knew it from the moment you kissed me.
From the second our lips touched.
The look in your eyes just before you leaned in
told me every thing I needed to know.

The tender sigh that escaped in a breath.
Your arms, so strong that enveloped me.
Even the way you held me was your betrayer.
The urgency to hold me close.

Yes my sweet love, I knew it....
I knew that this incredible kiss would be our last.
I knew the time had come to stop our lovely game of pretend.
I was not your forever girl....and it was time to go.

So....we parted ways.
I went my way, you followed your road.
Where its led you, I haven't a clue.
I was only to know where you'd been.

I'll keep the memories shared.
I'll cherish that last lovely kiss.
I won't however dwell on what could've been.
That's not my style.

Any way....hope you're well.

I know you'll never know exactly what you've done for me.
You'll never know the light you lit inside.
You were simply being you,
And yet, you made me better.

With every smile you lit my world.
With every witty remark you made me laugh,
And through this laughter, I found my way.
Out of the darkness....I found the sun.

I know you'll never know exactly what you mean to me.
You'll never know the important role you played.
You were simply being you,
And yet, you gave me hope.

With your charming ways, you won me over.
With your beautiful heart, you made me fall in love,
And through this love, I found my strength.
Overcoming fear....I could stand alone.

You'll never know you were my strength.
You'll never know you were my light.
You'll never know you gave me hope and made me better.
I know you'll never know....but I do.

I know you did so much, by simply being you.

If you're here to break my heart
don't stay
If you're here to cause me pain
walk away
If you're here to end things
I know it's too late

It doesn't matter if you love me
It doesn't matter if you leave
I'll love you anyway
That's the way it's got to be

You don't have to be beside me
You don't have to hold my hand
You can go and live your life
It's okay, I understand

But my heart is stubborn
No matter what I say
No matter what I do
It will love you any way

So if your here to break my heart
Instead just walk away
Don't say you don't love me
Please....save me the pain

Because after all of it....
I'll love you anyway💖

You kissed her
A peck on the lips
It broke my heart
It seemed so natural
So comfortable
I knew then
There was no us
There never would be
In that second
I let you go

In the end Justice prevailed
In the end we chose Love
In the end we chose to fight
And.....we won.

Now real change begins....

I wish I were made of stone
So your words would never hurt me
I wish I were cold as ice
Then maybe I wouldn't be lonely

I wish I were made of steel
So my strength would never waver
If only I could turn back the clock
To a time when I felt safer

But I'm only flesh and bone
And your words have left me bleeding
My heart is torn apart
It's a wonder it's still beating

You made up your mind
Given me your final answer
What we shared is in the past
Time to write a brand new chapter

I will fix my broken heart
Some how piece it back together
It may never be the same
It'll bare this scar forever

But I'll be strong, I'll be alright
Though I'm not as hard as steel
And I can't turn back the clock
In time....my heart will heal

I remember you
Your eyes
Your smile
Your arms....

I remember you
Your dreams
Your plans
Your promises....

I remember you
Your passion
Your heat
Your love....

I remember you
Your distance
Your excuses
Your lies....

I remember you
Your anger
Your jealousy
Your accusations.....

I remember
When I had enough
When I walked away
When I felt broken....

I remember
When I found my strength
When I let go
When I stood tall....

Yes, I remember....

Is it okay that I still love you?
Even knowing what you did?
I knew nothing at the time
Hell, I was just a kid

I sometimes got the feeling
That maybe you were mean
But I'd push it from my mind
Like some forgotten dream

You used to tell me stories
Before I'd go to sleep
You shared with me imagination
But kept your secrets hidden deep

As I grew into a woman
You gave me great advice
You taught me to be honest
For to lie you pay a price

You told me I was beautiful
And you loved to hear me sing
I never felt you judge me
I could tell you any thing

By then my sister and brother
Had left to escape your fury
You made us think they alone were guilty
A swift exile by judge and jury

I believed they were to blame
Yes, I believed your lies
Even though Dad's heart was broken
Even when I heard his cries

As the years progressed
You shared a little of your tale
About your ******* of a father
And how he put you all through hell

Your last years were full of pain
You suffered much before your death
You begged them for forgiveness
Then you took your final breath

But the damage was too great
And we would not recover
We remained estranged
From our sister and our brother

Since your death I've learned the truth
What you did, and what was done to you
My hearts breaks for the abuse you gave
And the hell that you went through

Now my heart is so confused
I don't know how to feel
Is it okay to love you?
Is the woman I knew even real?

I can't explain it any better
And I don't know what to do
I wish some one would just tell me
Is it okay to love you?

I wait....for the moment when I see your face again
I wait....for the healing that will come with the sound of your voice
I wait....to breathe again

I long....for the feel of your hand on my face
I long....for the warmth of your embrace
I long....to feel whole again

I find a reason....to smile every day
I find a reason....not to cry myself to sleep every night
I find a reason....to believe in miracles

I hope....that I am worthy of your love when at last we meet
I hope....that I make you proud
I hope....you know how much I love you

I know....I will see you again
I hold on....to that thought

I have to......
If I don't....I will break

I can't fall apart
I am depended on.....so....I wait.

With a tenderness that surprises me
you take me in your arms

Slowly you kiss my cheek
and whisper in my ear "Your call"

It's up to me.....yes....no....
Your fingers trace my jaw....lightly

I know how this will end....but...
I want this

I kiss your chin....and...it...is....on
Too late, There's no turning back

Tomorrow will come with it maybe regret
but....I want this

The look in your eyes is intense
You say "I'm gonna take my time with you"

I shiver with anticipation of
what's to come

For a moment...a brief moment
I am fear and nerves...then you kiss me

All fear is gone, in its place....desire
I want this

I close my eyes and I finally say it
"I want this"

No turning back now
tomorrow be ******

I want this

I'll deal with the loneliness
I'll suffer the pain
For you to have sunshine
I'll live with the rain

I'll laugh when you're happy
I'll cry when you're sad
When you suffer injustice
I'll scream when you're mad

I'll quietly love you
I'll stay by your side
I'll play the best friend
My true feelings I'll hide

As long as you're smiling
There's not much I won't give
I'm here to protect you
As long as I live

As long as I exist I will love you
As long as I am me, I am yours

If after this life there's another
I want to spend it loving you more

I've tucked away each memory
I've memorized your face

My love will last forever
It transcends through time and space


For as long as I exist, as long as I am me
What ever life I live, where ever it may lead

I will always love you

You are not the wind in the trees
Nor the sweet summer breeze
You are not the stars that light the night
Or the sun shining bright

You're the reason I take notice of it all

You are not kisses in the rain
Make-out time on lovers lane
You're not dancing in the streets
Or dancing in the sheets

You're the reason I desire to

You're not the reason my heart beats
You're the reason for the speed
You're not the reason I survive
You're why I'm glad to be alive

Just as you are....I love you

I need you to know some thing
I love you
I do
But....

Losing you won't end me
I love you
I do
But.....

I don't need you to love me
I don't need you
I don't
But....

I will never forget you
I won't forget
I won't
But....

I will let you go
I'll let go
I will
But....

I love you

Danger
Code red
We're both feeling the heat

Forbidden
We can't
Compelled, our eyes meet

Exigency
Urgent thirst
Pictures flash in my mind

Desire
Burning hunger
Our bodies entwined

Electric
Your eyes
Provoking gleam as you stare

Desirous
Ardent yearning
A most torrid affair

Savor
A moment
We planned it just right

Delicious
Each touch
As we keep out of sight

Bewitched
I'm hooked
Consumed by your passion

Elated
To know
That was only a fraction

Breathe
Gain control
All in good time

Inevitably
This night
We'll know pleasure, sublime