i felt the burden of ****** shaking the room,
i asked you if i should move on.
you stayed silent, that
said more than you possibly could have said.
it's getting more difficult to say
"i want you back."
the only thing that'll come out is
"why?"
i don't even want the answer anymore,
i just want to stop. i want it all to stop.
the only escape that i can imagine is
a bullet through the brain.
i can't see myself ever not loving you
and you never loved me from the start.
but you don't understand
i fell hard and i fell fast
there was no one to catch me and i am
laying on the floor,
bruised and bleeding.
just repeating.
"why?"
new year, new me, right?
well why do i still feel like an island?
one that not even the tide can reach.
so far away and disconnected,
who even knows how to find my heart.