A New Beginning
Can happen any time
Any where
And at any age

A new beginning is
The dawn of a new day
Or a new year
From one moment to the next
It is an opportunity
To start anew
If one has the courage and
The drive to capture
And willingly grasp this change
To make new dreams
And then make those
Dreams come true…

A new beginning
Whispers of wishes and dreams
As the morning sunlight
Gently kisses me good morning
Filling my soul with delight
I dare to take flight
In a new direction

Kelly Rose
January 2, 2016

She is a ghost within her own life
There, but never seen
She sought love in all the wrong places
Disappearing a little bit more
With each failed love affair
Then one day she was seen
She was loved!
Or so she thought
Now, frozen in fear
She becomes less visible
As love dies
With each harsh word spoken
One tear drop at a time
Each day she becomes insubstantial
A Ghost -
There, but not seen

Kelly Rose
December 2, 2015

Harsh words spoken
Are an arrow that
Pierces one’s heart
Leaving its mark, a wound
That can slowly heal with time

The one who slings such arrows
In their bitterness
Wounds their own heart as well

The difference is…

The arrow the wielder receives
Leave such a wound
That erodes over time
With its bitter sting
Robbing them of
Empathy
Kindness
And compassion

Harsh words spoken
Harms all within its vicinity
Leaving some to recover slowly
And many who will recover, not at all

The best course of action
Is inaction
Leaving harsh words
Unspoken

Kelly Rose
October 9, 2015

Once we were lovers mind, body, and soul
Eros has flown, only philia remains
Sadness takes hold, no longer am I whole

Distance creeps in; the heart is inconsolable
I am drowning in sorrow’s cold grey rain
Once we were lovers mind, body, and soul

Love is diminished, leaving a gaping hole
Deep inside.  Our connection slowly wanes
Sadness takes hold, no longer am I whole

I feel I am only playing a role
Toleration fades, leaves only disdain
Once we were lovers mind, body, and soul

Failed actions have taken a painful toll
Slowly dying, overtaken by pain
Sadness takes hold, no longer am I whole

Future uncertain we’ve lost all our goals
This slow erosion lets sorrow’s madness reign
Once we were lovers mind, body, and soul
Sadness takes hold, no longer am I whole

krs
August 2, 2015

Contemplating life as time slips away
Feeling tangled by decisions she made
Mysteries unravel and thoughts run astray
She needs to move forward before hope fades

Life has slipped away, much to her dismay
Watching dreams die, emptying her cache
Lingering doubts leave her feeling jaded
Contemplating life as time slips away

Shadowed by loneliness, she feels like prey
She closes her eyes and hides to evade
Her pain and sorrow.  She will have her say
Feeling tangled by decisions she made

Cobwebs are clearing, hope brightens her day
Dark skies are changing, becoming pearl grey
She’s now able to step out from the shade
Mysteries unravel and thoughts run astray

Her mind is now clear; she’ll find a new way
As long as she is able to persuade
Her doubts to fade, while learning to pray
She needs to move forward before hope fades
                               Contemplating life

krs
7/17/2015

Her pain is tangible, it breaks my heart
She does not see it, but our love is strong
Despite her pain, we will never part

Together we can forge a new start
Despite her pain, entwined are our songs
Her pain is tangible, it breaks my heart

Shared laughter will make her pain depart
True love will give her strength and make her strong
Despite her pain, we will never part

We were meant to be, our hearts sing one song
She tries to hide, knowing it is wrong
Her pain is tangible, it breaks my heart

She smiles every now and then, it’s a start
Through she feels she has nowhere to belong
Despite her pain, we will never part

She smiles very now and then, it’s a start
Her heart and my heart, totally belong
Her pain is tangible, it breaks my heart
Despite her pain, we will never part

KellyRose
7/16/2015

Nobody

She is nobody
Expendable
Not very memorable
She is a  ghost in life
Never making  or
leaving her mark
Easily, she could fade away
She knows not how to connect
Out of sight, out of mind
Lives too much within her head

She is...
unacceptable
too odd
that brick wall that is impenetrable

Never to be remembered
Never needed
Really nobody
She is loneliness

Kelly Rose
May 10, 2015

She will prevail

It can hurt
To have one's integrity or honor
Questioned

She lives life
By her own rules
As the roads of life's journey
Are often like a maze
Filled with twists and turns
Leaving one confused and dazed

As one navigates their way
Through the labyrinth of life
Hard lessons are learned
One must live by
Their own rules
As they wade through
The deceptions and lies
Thrown their way by life

She rises above the petite hurts
And false accusations

Knowing the truth
Whether it is known to all
Or buried deeply inside
That she will prevail

A distance has opened
Between Heart and Soul
Passion and Desire

Now...

Disconnected from
Wants and Needs

Wondering how to
Weave back together
What has been
Torn asunder

krs
5/3/2015

Dance is a breathe of love

****** me with your Waltz
Stir my Passions with your Tango
Steal my Heart
With your Rhythm and Grace

Dancing the night away*

krs
3/25/2015

Sometimes...

Sadness takes hold
and
it's grasp is just
too hard
to break*


3/20/2015
krs

harsh words...

"you don't know
what you are talking about"

"shut up
no one wants to hear it"

"you're so stupid"

easily steals one's voice

harsh words
taken to heart

she may never find
her voice again*

krs
3/12/2015

Humor

She is often told
she has no sense of humor

But really....
It wasn't that she
did not enjoy the absurd
Or laugh

The problem is
she's just not funny

So strange...
you would think
humor and funny
are one and the same

Obviously not...
She sees the humor in that

Do you think funny people -
those who gift others with laughter
have a sense of humor?

Often
their fun-ni-ness
comes out of pain

Do you think they see the absurd?*

2/27/2015
krs

Unexpectedly...

She looked up
and met the eyes
of a man on the
other side of the glass

A lifetime lived within a moment

Oh how she felt the loss

A pearlish grey morn
Flowers soaking
up the rain
Wishing it was
as easy
To nourish one's soul
While, shivering from
the wet chill

The dawn greeted me
in hues of pink and violet

The dusk bid
fare thee well
in hues of orange

The moonlight
kissed and caressed
my skin
in a gentle glow

The mists of time and space
bathes me in dew
drenching me to my soul

Drenched and shivering,
The mauled slivers of trash
Drag themselves down the sewers
And into a bottomless pit of hate.

It meets my heart there,
Sitting and wallowing in self pity for its destruction,
Reminiscing the old days
Where it was plump and happy,
Red and full...
When it wasn't exposed to the true nature of love.
Words of hate thrown like snowballs,
Freezing it over,
Chipping bits of it away
Until it was almost gone...

Tears soaking up all the blood spilling out of the wounds of the dear heart,
It mixes in with the dew
Bubbling, steaming,
Churning into poison,
Until finally it burns through everything,
And no heart, no soul is left.

How hard it is to be grateful
for all those little pleasures
when the heart is torn asunder

A dream hovers
just out of reach

Battered, baffled
a little bit broken

She struggles
her focus
distracted

Wondering...

What dreams come?

She's told...

Be Strong
Be Perfect
Never show weakness
Or be vulnerable

Nothing prepares her
as she slowly falls apart

How does she
pick up the pieces?

There is no better
feeling
than riding a horse
on a moonlit night
a cool breeze
gently caressing
sending shivers
as freedom flows
through your veins

Not all receive hearts and flowers this day...
Not all are reminded of their true love
Some
shed
Soft tears
for Valentine's that never come
just another holiday
that reminds
no family gatherings here
no hearts and flowers
just a little ache
a reminder
that you are not in
his heart and thoughts
it's just another lonely day

Love lives within her
hidden so deep

Maybe one day...

She'll tap into that
endless well
that abides deep
within her

And love will
blossom and shine
setting her aglow

She tries to quiet
her silentless
mind
on this eerily quite
night
Alas,
she fears the silence
and yearns
for the silentlessness
of her mind

krs

Guilt destroys
love
taking its toll
upon the soul
strips acceptance
of one's self and for others

Forgiveness
the only cure

But can she ever forgive herself?
So much harder than it sounds

A gentle rains falls
mesmerizing
in sight and sound
Wistful thoughts
invade
She feels
the loss
of the love
she never had

Another sleepless night
3am, a bit beyond
the witching hour

A time of quiet reflection
Remembering dreams lost
& Creating dreams to be

Thinking of past sorrows
Anticipating tomorrow's
Joys

Another sleepless night

Contemplating Life's mystery
And
Marveling at the
Wonder of it all...

He gently brushed
the tear from her cheek
his heart shattering
as their moment passed

How i wish for
rainbows, magic and joy
Instead...
I struggle with life's
ups and downs
Luckily...
There are many
moments
filled with laughter
So...
Even though life
is not all
Rainbows and Magic
Love, laughter and happiness
help balance out
The frustrations, angers, and disappointments
that life sometimes
throws my way

Now...
It's just a matter
of remembering

All the love, laughter, and happiness
that comes my way
and lights my path
leading me out of the darkness

For a moment in time
we heard the same song

Magic and music
dancing in the air

For one magical moment
we shared a beautiful song

In moments of silence
She wonders if
she knows love

Fear is such a comfortable
emotion for her
does she feel anything else

Taught shame...

She wonders if
she will ever overcome
self-hatred

Maybe love's illusions
are all she knows

Sometimes...
Yes, sometimes
she hates those
moments of silence

Still...
She struggles
hoping
that she knows
more than just the illusions
of love