In a time of deep uncertainty

with my NuBlaccsoUl in ruins.

The kingfisher Ja bade me follow Creepstar

To the mystical place

In search of grace,

beyond sheer Pradip mountains

Where the clear crisp ink of fountain flows.

Here the saints of Ignatius

stop to quench their thirst.

The journey held danger

when I came upon a stranger

I became enchanted by the spells

of a mischievic Pixievic.

Spell bound I watched entranced

  the sheer dexterity of the Busbar dancer

Whereupon My poor dark soul

fell deep in a hole.

I was taken through the worst by Steven Langhorst

To arrive safely at the hallowed grounds of Newvango

Where now I see

the Paradise in me.

There once was a time
I was broken in two
Lost and all alone
Not able to cope
Unable to find
The place that I called home
With a pill or a smoke
I would hide away
From the world and from life
Running away
From all that was good
Living in pain and strife
Lost my way
Ran from God
And all that was good and pure
Taking a hit
To make it ok
But always leaving me unsure
I chased the high
It was all that I knew
To take away the pain
Never amounting to much
Never wanting to be
Anything but vain
Then one day
A bottom I hit
So hard I thought I would die
Instead what I found
Was a willingness then
To maybe learn how to fly
Opened my heart
To the love of a God
And that of my family and friends
Suddenly,  I found the hope
Learned how to make amends
My life began to turn around
No longer in a bottle or pipe
Taking steps to learn to live
And not get caught up in the hype
Leaving a life of destruction and pain
Embracing my life once again
Learning to live One Day at a Time
Breaking away the chains
That bind my soul
To the darkness within
Opening my heart to love
Giving me willingness
To try to be
All I was meant to …in love.

April 5, 2016

Our world is crumbling
Falling apart
Losing its will to live
People having disregard
Lost respect
And forgetting how to give
Oceans laced with
Bottles and trash
Forests and playgrounds too
The world walks by
With blinders on
Never smiling too
We’ve lost our hope
We’ve lost our love
We are fighting just to survive
Trying to find a glimpse
of what it used to mean -
to be alive
we’ve forgotten our souls
our reasons to live
we hide behind our masks
pushing away the world around
focusing on our tasks
Forgetting all who are in need
Turning a blind eye
Selfishly hoarding all we can
Until the day we die
You cannot take it with you
Your treasures turn to rust
Or end up in a trash pile
And your memories turn to dust
You leave behind no legacy
Of good and kindness and love
Of lending out a helping hand
In life you fell short of
Remembering why
We were given this life
It isn’t about your things
The question that will be asked of you
Is what did you do for Me?
How did you help another
When their confidence was down?
How did you help bring light
To a person with a frown?
How did you clothe the naked?
Or feed the hungry, and hurt?
How did you show My love
To those who were out of work?
Or did you spend your life
In anger
Blaming the world for your fate
Spreading sickness, telling lies
Burying your soul in hate?
It is your choice
On how you live
And what you wish to leave
How will you be remembered my friend
What kind of life will you weave?

April 5, 2016

Yesterday was lonely
Full of empty dreams and space
Not knowing where my life was going
If I’d ever leave this place
I moved along thru each day
A zombie without a clue
Barely noticing the world around
Barely making it thru
There was no color to my world
No purpose… or plan
Nothing to motivate my life
No energy…..no I can
Then one day quite by fate
I met you in a room
Gently, softly, quietly at first
You pulled me from my tomb
Opened up my heart to grace
Took me by the hand
Spoke romantic words to me
Helped me out of the sand
That was holding back from moving on
Keeping me stuck in life
Guiding me safely to a place
Of wonderment and rife
Now we walk hand in hand
To the wonderment of our dreams
Moving forward step by step
Together as a team
Our future holds promise now
Faith will bring us there
To the place we dream about
where our love will always fare
You are my love….my dream come true
My future now holds no fear
Walking by you side by side
Our course has now been cleared

March 31, 2016

When this life is gone
And I am no longer here
Who will carry on
To help dissipate your fears?
Who will hold you when you hurt
When  your soul needs to be shared
Who will help you know
That I am still here?
I walk with you in your heart
I lay with you in bed
I hold you when you cry
I’m with you till the end
I’ll be there when you cross
On to the other side
Forever with you my love
I’ll walk right by your side
Do not cry when I leave this world
For I’ll always stay with you
How could I leave you all alone
Until your life is through?
For love will last until
Eternity is gone
I’ll forever be with you
Until your day’s are done

March 29, 2016

My soul is naked, open to you
More open than I’ve ever been
Can I trust you not to break
My heart that’s buried within?
Do you feel the way I feel
Do you wish the same
As the future I seek for us
Or is it just a game?
I want to hold you in my arms
To know that you are real
Seems that time will never come
To show you how I feel
I’m trying to be patient
Though it’s wearing very thin
I’ve waited all my life for you
When will the waiting end?
All the stars lined up just right
For us to finally meet
I swear that I will wait for you
Never admitting defeat
I’ll sit here waiting…impatiently
For that day to come
When we can be together at last
When our souls unite as one
Forever then I’ll hold you near
Never letting go
Showing you each day that comes
The greatest love you’ve ever known.
March 23, 2016