i don't know if the tears burning hot
are angry anymore
or if they're escaping silently
without a second thought

my world has stopped
the silence grown
like the feeling deep inside me
buried eternally in my bones.

i never used to wonder
if i was important to you.
there was never a doubt in my mind
about the things we would do.

"open your legs"
"spread them wide"
so that you could peer in to see what's inside
but you're looking through the wrong window
my mind is more than my body, so you know.

now you've made me weak
and I'm somehow nervous just to speak to you
and I've placed all my worth
in the skin and bones
that once upon a time, captivated you.

that spark of excitement I feel
when you hand me a crumb of attention
makes all my highs pale in comparison

and while you ignore me
I'm left wondering
what I can do
to make us what we used to be.

where her words are hidden
and her thoughts kept in,
many people spoke,
not hiding their grins.
she wants to scream,
wants to fight.
but no sound escapes
until she takes flight.
her wings felt good
soaring in the wind,
and she smiled as screamed
all she had kept in.
her voice danced along
alone with the breeze
but then she awoke
and she was no longer free.

the heart is just a pulsing muscle,
it doesn't deserve credit for how we feel.
the existence of a soul has never been proven
so I choose to look at love from a scientific perspective.

when I tell you, "I love you",
it's just a complex mix of neurons
firing signals around my body,
convincing you of these feeling
that are just made of chemicals.

"my heart beats for you"
no it doesn't.
it beats to spread blood so we can live.

when I tell you, "we have a connection",
it's really just my brain
wanting some stimulation.

you are strong,
strong enough to trust.
to place your heart in someone's hand,
but heal when it gets crushed.

you're strong enough to know the difference
between real connection and lust.
to seek out a future of pure happiness,
not endless shallow compliments.

so, you're strong enough to stand on the edge of a cliff
and blindly jump.
when you fall, and you're engulfed with a wild rush,
enjoy the drop. close your eyes
and let yourself be held
by the comforting wind and it's caressing touch.

but, when suddenly the ground seems all too close,
and the fear of impact drowns most
everything around you
and that rush that once coursed through your veins,
starts to itch and burn,

now you're back again.