I'm made for heartbreak
I've been blessed with cuts and bruises
No lashes for my eyes to open them wide
To discover the culprit
The Hunter , the one who preys
Who loves to see me on the floor begging for more
I' was made to know I don't belong to them
Those hearless ******* who destroy me
Using my heart as a toy
That they play with the intention to throw away

I'm not a doctor, I'm not a wife
I'm not a mother, I never received those flowers at night
You said you love me but you lied
You don't know what love is
No, you're not afraid to lose me, no you did not cry
But when I told you I would tell her, you said you wanted to die
I don't have any money, we shared so many things
But in the end, it's not enough for you dear
I'm always fun, I'm always kind, I always help anyone I can
I know my value but for some reason, no one wants that
I was never chosen, no one ever picked me, I'm always a sidekick
I'm tired of heartbreaks, of picking the wrong guys
I'm finally saying goodbye to you all
All the people that hurt me and are still in my life
I know I'm strong, I know I'll get through this
I beg you universe, I've learned my lesson
I'm tired of crying of acting like a fool
Please bring me someone that's cool
I dont want nothing at all, I just want to not hurt so much

I try to shut the demons that cry
I try to make you feel safe
I try to manifest that you are okay
But it never seems to help
I have done reiki, meditation, and more
Still, you feel like you don't deserve anything at all
I'm tired of living with your shadow
Since I can't control that you are so shallow
Please help me figure out what is it that you want
How can I heal this heart of mine
That you are so attached
I can't disconnect from you or the past
I wish I could turn back time
To prevent the feeling when you felt like you needed to die

She Lies In her Head
Whispers Words left unsaid
Never Thinks about the past
Just the thought of a new life
Damaging everyone, she doesn´t Care
All she feels is unhappy
I feel alive , she feels dead
It's no one's fault but hers
Take me back to your paradise
Loose Those ponytails and
Dance with your hair
Life aint simple ****
"But try to make it forth living", they said.
I try.. I try..

Interrupted dreams and desires
By my daily routine
Interrupted breathing.
I can barely breathe
From the dust that surrounds me
From all the pain that caused me
This life interrupted
The things that make me happy.
Because I gotta do my laundry,
And pay bills , no other way to live
I cant even have a hobby
No energy or money
And again I cant breathe,
I got an allergic reaction from
Not pursing my dreams.

In this moment, I want to stay
Grasping every breathe
Developing a sense of self
That right now Its all I crave
Not needing to depend
On a person or a thing
You should take care and let me
Be the best that I can be
Please help me keep this memory forever
Tomorrow might be gone and in the past I dont belong
Should I stay or should I go?
In mind there is no stillness , just hope
That these forever thoughts would leave me alone

When the sun falls,
The moonlight shines
I can't sleep away those nights
I feel attached, I feel drawn to the times I've created a song
Only at night, I trust myself
I feel blessed
The stars are guiding lights
That show me the way to my heart
In the day, that power fades
What does his mean?
I'm not sure.. but only in the night
I want to find out more.

I clung to you, no matter how many fights we had
I know we aren't right for each other
But I didn't want to let you go, I wanted to take on whatever you gave to me
I thought this was true love, but from moments I had my doubts about you went back and forth
But the thought of missing you was stronger than a fort
We have so many things in common, I cherish your goodwill
But something was off, I knew it from the start
Was it your lack of concern, your critical words or even how you never watched the reruns?
We tried, we longed, we had enough time to decide if this was gonna work out.
I saw your insecurities from afar and I also saw mine.
Is it impossible for us to find common ground?
You were spontaneous, but I love to make plans
I feel bad to cause you  suffering but I tried
We just weren't on the same side
I hope I can let you go because I never loved you at all
You were probably right not to trust me cause I never brought you home

Me husmeas y me dejas
Oliendo a ti, Al sabor de tus besos
en mi boca
Pero te vas, siempre te vas
Siento que te pierdo
Porque ya no estas
Y si quisieras te podrias quedar
Pero te vas, dejando una parte de ti en mi
De la cual no me puedo safar
Y es tu aliento que invade mi interior
Atada me siento a un aroma
A cada olor de tu cuerpo
Y puedo estar comiendo y
Me acuerdo al sabor de lengua
Aquel dia que olvide tu fragancia
Ese dia olvidare mi infancia.

Can I leave this earth?
I find no meaning for it
No logical explanation of why I'm here
Suffering all the time
No one that loves me I find
Can I disappear or get lost?
Patience is no virtue of mine
Why am I in pain all the time?
Can I leave this world behind?
I take the stairs and climb the trees
I want to be happy, I just don't know how

With upcoming Christmas and fall
comes these headaches
They wake me up, they tear me down
I never seem to get rid of them
They get stronger and stronger with time
There's no cure, just a painful sunrise
Not trying to be a victim here, but you feel so alone
No one understands, only a few will experience them
I long for the day where I don't get to feel like I do every day
At least I wish, I had someone by my side who would hold and tell me everything will be alright
Life is hard, it gets harder
My eyes hurt, I feel sick,
I feel vertigo and chills
And no one knows how to stop them
I just accept this hollow ride
My dear migraines
Don't leave me here to die

A veces las cosas no salen como queremos,
Los tropiezos se hacen rutina
Las lagrimas se convierten en ríos,
y los oceanos de alegría se secan.
Con el tiempo nos damos cuenta de que
no siempre hay un final feliz como
en las peliculas,
no todos tenemos la vida resuelta,
Personas que estaban , ya no estan
Lugares que conociamos parecen desconocidos,
pero la vida sigue hacia donde?
Nadie sabe.. Lo que si se es que aprendemos, a ser mas fuertes,
a luchar contra lo que sea, a pelear como un samurai
a mirar hacia delante y aunque a veces miremos hacia
tras, a voltear la mirada.
A buscar libertad aunque sea prohibida y la paz aunque sea escasa.
A perdonar a quien no merece y a ver lo bueno en las personas
que de verdad se preocupan por ti.
A no ser exigente y aceptar el momento y ser feliz con el pedazo de pan diario.
A buscar conocimiento en un lugar vacio,a hacer preguntas ,
a no ocultar las dudas, A questionar nuestro alrededor,
a estar firmes en lo queremos y a no saciarnos con la mediocridad.
Y lo mas importante a ser quien eres..
Arriesgarte y pararte al frente de tus miedos y seguir caminado hacia el cielo.

Being in love feels like a slow death
Like our lives going to shreds
This heavy breathing feels as if life has no meaning
I hope I don't sound so depressed
I swore I'd never write about you, I swore I would forget
I kept myself busy, but all pain was still there it never went away
And I'm missing you like crazy
I wrote this stuff on my phone, It reminds me of all the things you did that hurt me, but still with that info on my mind
I can get lost in time
Thinking about the memories we left behind
Cliche? oh well, Love is a nuisance
Thousands of words I've written about you
Then erased each and every one of them
I thought you didn't deserve my words, my tears,
My sleepless nights
But I need this
I need to write it down
The hidden treasures of your hugs
The way you held me, I was never held like that before
I don't know if I'm in love with the idea of love
Because loving you feels like a hoax

Love shouldn't be this callous
I've never cried so much in my life
You celebrate the lies, I scorn the Trust
Teach me a lesson and break my soul
Sounds like a plan
Go ahead, be cold and distant
I can take all the punches
I hate to say goodbye
But you just love to see me cry
Is that the way you think it should be?
You can never hurt somebody so many times
That instead of holding on, they let you go.

I want to tell you, that you are valued and you are true,
You try your hardest to be this woman that has no clue
Please know you are loved
And understand that things will turn out in the end
No matter how many people turn you down
You still got yourself and that is all that counts
Always look up at the sky
Remember its okay to cry
Keep treating yourself like you are special
And help me welcome a new space in your heart
Where the only one who matters is you, my love

I keep telling myself I don't Love
I try to tell myself I don't care
Because the last time I tried, It hurt like hell
I feel like you don't love me, or love means
different things to everyone
But my idea of love is eternal, faithful,
caring and true, and I haven't found that in you
This just leaves me with a sour taste
A confusing waste of time,
Never knowing what truly means to be loved
I guess even when you say so, it feels like a lie
To me love is an action, a verb,
Not a word you throw out when you're bored
It feels like love doesn't exist anymore

Woke up with anxiety in my bed
I can't leave my fears for dead
I keep thinking about things I don't have but I want
I keep thinking about being lonely instead
I wanna be positive and feel like the rest
I wanna be happy and joyful
But my thoughts won't leave me
They won't go
I wanna enjoy this vacation I wanted for so long
I need to exercise more
To in the present moment
But I have my energy underground
My piercing won't work
My headaches are saying hello
Life is hard but some people have it worse
Why can I just be thankful, oh Lord?!

You come and go,
And put behind pieces of me I cannot find
You leave me stranded on this desert , you know the place
You take me there, I stay alone
But you return home
Then again, I find my way
Wondering where I put my medicine?
Can you explain the reasons why you left?
I don't even know If it's all true
If it's a dream, that's what It feels like when Im with you
You're like a magician, Pulling tricks that no one can see
Breaking people in two,
Escaping while you can
And It's all a game to you,
The way you appear and dissapear
Leaving no trace
Stop making ways into my heart
And make someone else the helper of your lies

No quiero que llegue mañana
Hoy está bien por hoy
Mañana me engaña
Me promete que mejora
Pero sigue siendo igual
En cambio, hoy, es simplemente Hoy
No se espera nada
Solo se disfruta, mientras se pueda
Mañana me entristece
Me envuelve y me miente
Solo quiero un hoy para siempre
Quiero no darle mente

I have no reasons to love you, but I do
You only caused me pain, but I also remember your shoes
As you walked towards me with those eyes, no they're not blue
I hate me without you
I find excuses to not show you I care
Cause If you care you show that as well
I don't know your family or friends
I don't care about the color of your hair
Just that you stay close to me,
I can't think about eternity
I hate that you're so friendly
I wonder If you think about me like I do?
Its hard to forgive you, and to forget you.
I want to start something new with him,
But he's no you

You said I was special and like no one else
But you lied
You said you didnt loved her and you lied again
I feel so hurt by your lies
I dont get how I get mistreated if I wasnt the one who cheated?
How am I suppose to believe in you?
How can. I TRUST people again?
I dont wish you die but I hope you get what Karma has for you
Hurting good people just cause you were hurt before
Makes a bad person, my love

I hate it, I despise what I do.
Cause It aint true
I'm not happy, I change my mind
I wanna go back in time
And say no to all those lies
That made me become the person I am
Today, I'm Sad, lost, and depressed
Without a purpose,
Without a cause,
Without anything I care about,
Life is hard when you don't love what you do
You only wish you could fly to the moon
Or leave the world you're In
You only want to dream
About places you haven't been
Cause you're tired of living only to survive
You don't feel alive
If I could start over, erase and rewind
Maybe later, maybe Never

Did you see her pass by with all the sass?
It isn't me
I only  see heavens , stars and clouds
Did you ever mentioned love?
I don't remember, I wasn't aware you noticed me at all
Never a keeper, Always reacher
I need a hall pass for this life
Waiting for another
Those things wont happen
The universe can't hold me
You surely didn't want to
Again inside those little worlds
That deteriorate my soul
They're getting bigger now as we grow old
Stop the world for a second
Let me hold my breath
Let me believe that I'm someone they care for

I found a new love, I've always longed for
Even More than you.
What I wanted more, Even if it isn't true
I've forgotten myself and my dreams, since you came into my life
All I wanted was to breathe you in.
But since you're gone,I remembered what makes me whole
What I truly live for
There's nothing I want more.
I hope you never return
But if you do, I'll show you
what I replaced you for
Something as pure as the Sun
This passion running through my veins
I wont hesitate to hide it no more
I need to let go of my fears
or Death will be near.

These only makes sense
Its the music in me that never ends
That melody I can't hold in for too long
Because It aches.. My heart aches
And even if I say no
Its what makes me feel alive
I don't want people to listen,
I only keep It to myself
Cause they'll take it away and make me
believe Im not part of this, when I know I am
They will crush me like they know how
Im weak, Im insecure
But Its pure, and Im empty
This feeling wraps me up

Colorblind, Drunk and Wine
You wont stand
Backing away from me
Cheers for the Memories that I made
That I wish I could forget
You never stood tall
You said my way wasnt for you
I told you I could change
Still wasnt good enough
My stomache aches
You push me away , I pull you close
I push you away, you say" please dont let go"
I dont know where we stand
I should probably let you go
But I still see you in my dreams
I knew that feeling like this couldnt last a lifetime
I Don't know how to love, neither do you
I was gonna say goodbye, but I wont

This hollow sensation feeling so numb
When will this pain be gone?
Afternoons on a Sunday welcomes my demise
Chillin on a Friday makes my heart stop
Will this misery last forever?
Only happiness meets joy
When lonely people dissipate their minds in the club
I don't wanna feel endless and empty
I wanna feel whole again
At least once, at least tonight
Just for a moment

I'm asking that you give the same in return
The same love I give with all the passion that I know
I just see promises burned
You surely have a group of friends that you can count on
But when you are feeling weak, you reach out to me
But when I'm feeling alone, you don't call at all
I've always felt rejected since I was a toddler
By you, by everyone I know
Now, as an adult, the same feelings
I don't know how to deal with rejection
It's like I can't get passed it
That I'm never the one to call
I'm never that person you want to spend your time with
My heart is shattered, I feel so alone
I just wanted, a sister, a brother, a lover to call my own

I cant believed you cared about how far I went
I cant believe you made a joke about everything I said
I dont understand the efforts you made
If my pants got ***** you didnt care
I kept over thinking these things in my head
Like a movie, like a story that never ends
But today is sunday and I still care
We never went fowards
We only went backwards
You said you didnt want trouble
Eventually i'll become a memory
This conection that felt so real
Wanting to move up but holding on instead
But you brought confusion
I sent you a video and a song
You never had time for them
Was it all in my head?
What went wrong started again
Its stupid I know, I only think about her

This love is endless
The whirlwind that began
The sorrow that never left
I can't accept this kind of love
It breaks my heart and soul
I can't see clearly the road
I'm obsessed with this Venom of love
It's all the toxicity that I don't want
But that I know
You won't change me, I won't change you
We won't see what's in front of our eyes
Should I respond to your sorry's?
Or should I cry to myself at night
leaving behind this pain that tucks me in at night
My heart knows nothing
I can't trust it,
who will guide me through with this veil?

It's tough to feel this pain
Without any reason or someone to explain
I lie awake thinking it was my mistake
I come to dream the daith will heal my head
But for some reason today I got a migraine
It seems to help everyone but myself
Should I be paying this, is it my fate?
I feel like there's a spell somewhere
I'm damaged, my friend
And on this sleepless night
I cry, I dont wanna fell like a victim
But Im tired of trying, of surviving
Of being in pain and trying to hide it
And people dont understand when I explain
I feel so alone again

You play well, the instruments, my heart, the bells
You said you loved me, but
You never showed it, dear
Played the fool
Played me too
You even played with my friends,
They thought you were cool
Played a role, Leading Man
But you were also the Villain
Played Tricks on my mind
Love is blind?
Played me a song by Pink Floyd
But only for a while,
Then you retired.

Nadie quiere amar
Solo alejan la posibilidad de  
Pensar que es posible ser amado
Solo siento que me pierdo en mi
mundo de tristeza
Luchando por estar en paz
Nadie quiere , nadie viene, nadie vuelve
Y sera que soy yo quien repela al amor
Al vivir, al querer ser feliz?
Me falta completar en la vida
Andar con la frente en alto
y decir que no me importa con quien ando
Esperar que algun dia llegue ese momento
En el cual me sienta bien y no mal
Y dejar de esperar en que alguien va llegar
Que se quede y que se quede..
Y que no me deje ir jamas.

No one wants a sad girl
I just hide and curl
No one wants to see me cry
Or complain about life
I see  people happy I wonder what that is like
To live in the moment
From time to time
I dont like to be alone
But alone I find myself
Living and wishing I was someone else
I was born like this, I remember as a child
Being alone and always saying goodbye

I'm sorry if I was ******* you when I said goodbye
If I hurt you by letting you see I was hurt
I mean no harm or pain
I do wish you the best
Don't believe me when I say.
I don't want to talk to you cause I do
But I can't be your friend maybe never again
I wish I could because I value your friendship so much
I wish my feelings weren't as strong
but they are bigger than I had ever known
I wish I could just take them away and we could talk like before
I feel like I lost a true friend
If you ever read this just know
that you are one of the best people I've ever known
I wish I could of told you this and so many things more
But It was time for me to let you go
I forgave you and I hope you can grow
Forgive me if I treat you like a stranger
But I have no other choice
I'm not as strong as you thought I was
If you ever read this just know
I wish you happiness and joy.

I'm sorry I've let you down
Im not as strong as I should be
I'm fighting my own battles
Trying to not take things personal
But I fail each time
I let my guard down
I dont limit myself and others
I'm a mess
But I keep trying everyday
Even though it never seems to get better
Somedays are good and some days are blue
But Im trying each day
I hope I can learn to love myself
To hold myself in high standards
Wait for it
I know you go this, my dear

How do you fight your own battles
Do you tell yourself you are capable of anything?
I dont think Im good for much
I have these thoughts about not being perfect enough
How do I turn them off?
When can I be me without feeling so guilty?
I struggled as a kid with my own self
And now I feel the same things that I did back then
I feel unwanted, and no matter how much I write
Those feelings don't go away
How do you heal one's self?
How do you care for yourself?
How do you stop fighting with your brain?
All these questions
Does someone know?
Am I just helpless on my own?

I feel like **** for ..
Wasting my time with you
For allowing you to make plans for two
For not knowing you were flawed
For thinking Its my fault
For waiting for the day
You'll come with your act straight
**** is what this is
And will always be
And no, I don't blame you for leaving
But I do hate my feelings.

Cada dia mas, me siento mas lejos de mi misma
Ya no hay pasos adelante , sino pasos hacia tras
Solo hay piedras en mi camino, no hay espacios para caminar sin tropezar
Y dicen que lo que no te mata te hace mas fuerte, pues a mi me ha vuelto
mas debil, sintiendo como mi vida se me escapa de mis manos
ya no se que hacer para cambiar mi destino
Solo existen pocos momentos de alegria y paz
Solo existe soledad ,Solo existen pensamientos atormentadores
y mis replicas de angustia
Solo existen ellos, y yo dejo de existir cuando se apoderan de mi
y mi yo, se vuelve inexistente.

Some days I feel fine, like the world is alright
Summer time is my jam
But my feelings I cannot tell
They are not the same each day
Somedays I dream of them
And my love is not defined by what you say or by how you act
But by the level of rejection that you provide
Im filled with traumas and feeling unkind
My heart is huge but this love it shuts down with time
I get bored I cant unwind but when we are apart I just dont feel fine

No turning back now
I asked for space and the Universe
You wanted to draw me close
I couldnt handle this Love that grew
It was stronger than a Tsunami
and Just as Damaging
Picking fights since the beginning
I decided to let you go , and you said I love you
You wanted to be there but I waited till
I was alone cause I didnt want you so close
Everyone says I should let you go
But I'm in love.
No turning back from this feeling that has no meaning
I will let you go, on my terms and I dont know if the time is now.
I keep telling myself you arent for me
But my heart keeps telling me please dont let him go.
But now you've found someone new.
Maybe She's better for you
Maybe she'll take care of you

Living someone else's life
Walking in someone else's toes
Troubling  someone else's mind
Singing someone else's song
Thinking about someone else's past
Not enough time to find my own heart
Waiting for the day that I find my way
To stop Living someone else's dream.

I dont wanna be like this
Overthinking every thing
I wanna be careless and free
But I cant let go of certain things
Obssesing thoughts
Running in circles in my mind
Picking the bad guys
I need to stay grounded
I need to let go of the past
I need to let people be
I cant live like this
I feel like Ill never be happy
That nothing is enough
I cant get rid of my anxiety
I need drugs to stay sane
I need more things to live and survive
My life is not enough
I close my heart to anyone I know
I cant sleep at night
My heart is shattered
I dont know what to do with myself

Have you ever wanted someone so bad, you forgot who you were?
Forgive yourself once more
Life is more than you know
I write all these words
Forget about sociopaths, so long
Now It makes sense
I never left
I never let you go
Now I understand
I need to love myself

This Sunday is my demise
Alone in the dark
No one to call my own
Just expectations from people
Just requirements of help
My heart is shattered
I hate Sundays, I really do
It reminds me I'm not for you or for anyone
I keep trying to do good
I don't deserve anything at all
I came into this world to suffer
I came to this life to pay
This feeling of emptiness that doesnt go away
I see the moon, and I see myself alone out there
Asking for help
But no one hears me, no one can see me
I'm all alone in my shell
Waiting for someone to save me
But no one comes
No one is there
I eat some ice cream
I drive around
And my heart beats faster than the speed of light
I don't know what else to do
Life is meaningless, Life is blue
For some people like me and you