I laid my body to rest
before my mind was ready
and so it wandered,
you wandered to my door

My mind put temptation as a test
my body fought
you arrived unannounced and distraught

I wrapped myself around you
like a friend would
I laid you down and allowed you to cry
like a friend should
you exhausted yourself
and fell asleep
and I began to think
which transformed to a weep

The thin line between attraction and satisfaction
we will forever fight
the lucrative way
you go in and out
until we arrive at the day
forever parting ways

I open my eyes, I haven't slept
the light outside pierces my skin
the glimmering tracks, I have wept

the subtle fantasy
surviving so far
down a purposefully set road
I dare not walk
I dare not talk
I know how I unravel
if I were to walk upon such loose gravel

Life in little steps of love
Falling, leaving, goodbyes and then denial
Happiness bleeds in little steps

You really know what love is
When you loose her
In few words

She was half playing
The game of love
But I lost completely

Too intense
Too insufficient
Loving has been painful to me

Her voice over phone
Simple, sweet and friendly
Isolates my love

The thin line of longing
That ties us
Cut me apart

Some words are so effective
Before you realise
They **** the happiness out of life

Your burden of being the only thing
That makes me happy
Is killing me softly

Broken heart beats silently
Fears to wake up mind
See, I told you so!

Can not say, what is harder
Breaking Heart or
Heart Break
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@Shashi
25th Oct - 31st Oct 2010

"I'm happy for you"
(But I'm not happy)
"Congrats"
(On having what I lost)
"He's a good kisser"
(I would know)
"I always knew you'd be with him"
(My heart and fear told me so)
"I can't believe you haven't kissed yet"
(But I'm glad you haven't)
"I'm okay with it"
(But I'm not,I'm just dealing with it.)