I don't just want a one time date,
I don't only want a perk on your lips,
I don't just want a formal dance,
I don't only want a warm bear hug,
Nor a walk down the gardens,
Nor a one nighter.

I want someone to hold in my arms,
I want someone who makes me lose control,
Someone who would embrace my imperfections,
I know it's hard and tricky,
But I just want someone to keep.

It's silly how I'm missing you like crazy,
When you're not even thinking about me.


It's funny how I would jump off a cliff just to save you,
But you wouldn't even look my way.


It's pathetic how I would be there for you,
Even when you don't know my existence.


It's so absurd that I would even love you,
That I would travel miles just for you,
Give up the things I love for you,
Swim the whole Pacific ocean for you,
But you will never notice me,
You would never call me,
You will never love me back.
And that's how ignorant I am,
How naive, obtuse, vacuous of me,
To have loved you, and still,
Loving you.

Tried being the good girl,
I got nothing.
Listens to whatever you say,
I got nothing.
Did what I think was best for us,
I got nothing.
Pretending to be happy even if I'm not,
I got nothing.
And now loving you even if you don't feel the same,
*I got nothing.