terror is feeling like you're losing everything: your mind, your friends, your family, your sanity, every single unique characteristic about yourself, and knowing there is nothing you can do to stop it
i taught you that it is okay to treat me badly because i always accepted and accepted it hoping it wouldn't happen again but that was just showing you that you can do it again and again until there was nothing left of me and i hated hated myself for teaching you to treat me like i was nothing