I'm not beautiful
Or well-bred
I watched my brothers die
I thought I was dead

Saved by a stranger
Who showed that they cared
Wrapped in a blanket
Hungry and scared

Now I just wait
Unsure of my fate
Please come and get me
Its never too late

Every morning
Every night
You're always there
I miss you already
Dread the day you won't be here
I'll be heartbroken, grieving
A few kilometres away

You've kept me calm
When my days were dark
A physical reminder everything will be alright
You'll promise me I can find another friend
To unconditionally love me
And always be there

Until then you are the Queen of this realm
Everything  I can give you
To enjoy without a care
Sitting there in bliss
Watching the birds in the sun
To never know hunger, thirst or fear

I will hug you, play with you
As much as I can
I will protect you
Take care of you
Its the least I can do
You're my very best friend
I'll always love you

Written not said
Makes sense in your head
Alive on page
Between the line
Rhyme time
Silent epistle
Soul speaks
Empathise
Message deep

REAL

hate bitter twisted resentful guilty aching broken

PAIN

ache seek wish hope desire yearn journey purpose

AWAKEN

grow learn respect love build gather reap walk talk

BELIEVE

time heal peace reconcile positive desire aspire inspire

GROW

empower faith strength power care love essence quality

WISDOM

I feel incomplete
As if you were stolen
At your peak
You were gone

New years 96'
I held your hand
Complete in that moment
Forever

March 97'
The knock at my door
A new pain
Changed my life

I'm cheated
Not Sad
Too short
Wish you were here

When I was 5 ...
Your kerosene heater .. I hated that smell ..
Your snoring .. kept me awake at night ..
Bathtime .. my ears hurt when you cleaned them with the rough flannel ..
Bathing in the river .. I was ashamed to be naked like you ..
Your teeth .. in a glass scared me ..
You had no mercy .. when on the hunt for head lice ..

Now I'm 45 ..
You had no mercy .. relentless, you got them all ..
Your teeth .. I keep mine in a glass in the bathroom ..
Bathing in the river .. unrestricted & one with nature, I get it ..
Bathtime .. your ears do get *****, I use a rough flannel too ..
Your snoring .. any snoring reminds me of you ..
Your kerosene heater .. the whiff of kerosene, my strongest physical memory of you .. I think of you .. now I love the smell of kerosene ..

Every cherished memory of my Grandmother, no detail forgotten, I will always love you Nan XOXO