It whispered to me, a creature of God's creation, one that i could not even define its nature, it said .. stay strong God's blessings must be earned. It kissed me under the starry sky and turned to dust as dawn begun.
Then I could hear the birds wake up
The morning breeze softly caressed me
There was me and the world
The memory of the creature slowly faded away, i tilted my head backwards, I needed nothing. Not you, not them , not the plans that they wrote for me.
Eventually i would have to get up
But not now, now .. those ticks that the clock ticked where mine to own, pleasure of the soul, a rest to the heart from the constant beating. I close my eyes, let those thoughts slowly drift away as I remember the calmness of myself. A deep breath , another, for the delight , for a million reasons I could count, there it is the truth as bright as the sun, i am in a stage where my happiness dose not include your name.

I have fallen in his world so deep that i begun loosing the definition of mine. My goals and aims shatter to pieces, no not with his name written beside mine, i suddenly dismiss my grand future plans. How ... how in the name of the Mary herself would i imagine life once more without him. His eyes, angelic art donatello  would define,  his smile, a blessing to earth.
Many have not yet felt love they way i do,  the way he loves me, little  would understand , that the safest place on earth is between his arms, its when he holds me and whispers close ... i will never let you go,  he would whisper again and again , i'd tell him ... i know ..  but he would repeat once more.