Jamie

Jamie Jul 4

2 years since I complained,
I’ve grown but still the same…

Alone, empty and wondering why.

Perhaps I know, but I don’t wanna own it...
Is this still poetry and just a pointless cry…

Jamie Dec 2022

4:20am London

The party is over
Why am I still walking around?

Anything to keep me awake?
Anything to stop me dreaming about you?

Jamie Jun 2022

Holding on For Dear Life

I wake up and I want to cry
I wake up and I want to hide
I wake up and pretend I’m fine

I tell myself

I will be fine as I hide my thoughts
I will be fine as I put on a fake smile
I will be fine as I try not to cry

Bad breakup. Just in case I’m not suicidal or anything just feeling hopeless

#hopeless #life #breakup

Jamie Jan 2021

Home

In every corner
I have a memory
Of us together

Lying side by side
Talking the night away
With food nearby

It hurt knowing
You would never
Come back home

#home #comeback

Jamie Nov 2020

Communication

I knew I had an issue with some people,
But I never thought I would struggle with you
Sometimes I don't know what to say
And it turns into you shouting at me
I just sit there and I take it
Because I don't wanna make things worse

One day I won't just sit there and take it
And I fear what will happen that day
You say you hate conflict
But it seems like I hate it more
So I sit there and I take it
Because I don't wanna make things worse

sometimes this is how I feel

#talking #communication #failing

Jamie Nov 2020

I’m fine

I’m getting tired of saying

I’m fine

I don’t want to talk to people to lie

I’m fine

I don’t want to pretend in meetings

I’m fine

I can’t take time off to lie to myself

I’m fine

#im #fine

Jamie Jul 2020

Alone

First hangover post lockdown
I don't think I've ever felt more alone
Maybe it's the hangover or
Maybe I finally I can say it

I don't know if, I would have felt
Any different if we had lockdown together
But you gave me everything
And I took you for granted

Maybe I would have noticed it more
All the things you did,
How you gave have me your heart
And you were always there

I don't know where you are
How you are
But I hope your safe
I hope you are happy

#alone #lockdown #hangover