The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.

Six months ago I was jumping through hoops to please you.
Six months ago I wanted to make sure you were happy before myself.
Six months ago I wanted to make sure it was me causing your happiness.
But it's not six months ago. It is now.

I feel so stupid to give so much
to someone who deserves
so little from me.

I can't forget your voice, it's like a broken record in the back of my mind.

what would you do
if you woke up one day
to find that I
didnt

When I’m upset.
I shut myself down
I have no motivation or anything.
I tell myself that nobody cares,
even though I know some do.
I think about all the negative things
I could possibly think of.
I give myself all the pain,
thinking I deserve it.
I’m not sure why I do that,
but that’s just how I am.

We drink to forget the thoughts and emotions we experience while we’re sober.