My love chains me
I resent you
for tying me so tightly

I am not enough
I am not enough

I have vowed my life to you
and I will fight forever to be worthy
i just hope I don't end up hating you

You told me I am your sun
but I am the moon
I only shine because of you

I stand before you
Completely bare
You've never been like this
You've never been this naked
Even though I've seen you without clothes
You've never been this bare

You were distant today
So I didn't say it

And now I'm scared I've ruined it
And that I'll never have the chance again

I've held it in for longer than I thought I could

**** it.

I love you

I'm mad at myself for giving you so much power over me
For not being able to break free
But I've been yours since the day we met
And I did fight it
I did
But I stood no chance
Against the force that was you

I'm sorry you meant too much to me
I'm sorry for falling in love with you
For giving you the power to break me

You didn't ask for that
And you didn't want it

I miss you today
Your body on mine
Your smile
How you would breathe me in
How you looked at me before it was ruined
I miss you today

You hurt me deeply
And sometimes I think I shouldn't have given you that power in the first place
But I will never apologise for loving too hard or trying my best

But I don't know if I can forgive myself for ever believing you were doing the same

You have ruined my sense of touch
I've never felt as safe as I did in your arms
There is nobody who makes my skin spark with electricity the way you did
Nobody whose warmth I don't shy away from now because it isn't yours

Human touch just doesn't feel the same since I met you
My body rejects any skin that isn't yours

It takes seven years to replace every cell in your body
In seven years none of your cells will have touched mine
So maybe I'll get my sense of touch back then

But oh how tragic it is that my cells will never have been touched you

I was never special to you
I was replaceable
You needed someone to be what I was for you
You didn't need me

And I guess you filled some kind of function for me too
but that was different
my desire was stronger than my need
I was good before I met you

You broke me and I remembered that I bleed

But the heart is a muscle
break it
and it will become even stronger

You never really liked me
If you had
You wouldn't have been scared
when I gave you my everything

I saw you
and I liked
even the things I normally wouldn't

And I hope you find someone else who can love you that way
because it is hard
and it is rare

You were never that for me
I kept searching for it in you
but in your eyes were only lust
and I almost got lost along the way