I am your best kept secret
The one you are afraid to be seen with
The one you can't bring back to your friends
The one you can't tell anyone about.
But I am the one who thought you cared
I am the one who fell head over heels
And I am the one picking myself up off the floor
And strutting out the front door.

Isn't it strange, wanting everything everyone else wants?
Are they expectations?
If we didn't see what is so desirable, maybe we would want something else entirely

-cj

Buried under all the empty bottles,
And broken hearts
Lied a girl with one to many thoughts.
As she tried to find the answers
At the bottom of a glass
She ended up drowning
Deep into her past.
And she couldn't help but throw back
A mix of all her regrets
And feelings
In one big cup of what she called
Her last.

People say suicide is a selfish act
but it's selfish of people to want me to stay
when I need to be set free
this is your selfish act
I've lost myself and there's no finding me
don't tell me to be alive
I'm not living
my demons took over my mind
they won't let me live
be happy
be free from misery
yes, I'm alive
but I'm already dead inside
**let me go