Do you ever ask yourself why?

Why is she prettier than you?
Why is he smarter than you?
Why is she better than you?

Or the hardest question to ask yourself

Why did the person you love left you hanging

Was it because someone was better
Was it because you weren't good enough

Everyday I wake up with this question in my mind
Everyday I wake up with a puzzled face
Everyday I wake up with a broken heart

Why?

Because

You left me hanging
You raised my hopes
You made me believe that someone would be able to accept me and love me  for who I am and will never give up on me

Remember

These words would always be in my mouth
These hands would always miss your touch
This lips would always linger for your kiss

And

This heart would always wait for a love like yours

You, yes you I never thought of anything like this. Maybe we are just not meant to be together, but hey everything about you seems to be on fleek your silly jokes your pretty face and your dazzling smile, but maybe just maybe they were not enough to match us together. Maybe that was it we were too perfect for each other that it wasn't able to match us because it was just a fairytale.

Is it just me?
Or does the room feel cold
Is it just me?
Or does the food taste bitter
Is it just me?
Or do my hands really look sore
Is it just me?
Or do you miss me too

Ever since you left everything changed. Don't you feel it?

You captivated me wih your simple hellos
I fell for you then you caught me
Until you mouthed the words I was scared to hear

'I'll love you forever'

I made myself believe that what you said was true

Our soul chained to each other
Our hearts beating for each other
Our lips pressed to each other

You and I against the world
You and I we'll last till forever
You and I we'll always be together

But they said that there's no forever
Oh how foolish am I to believe your bittersweet lie

But what we thought was forever lasted for a while

Once I saw you smile my heart melted
Knowing that thinking of me makes you smile
Everytime your lips curve and teeth shine
Makes everything complete

But by far knowing that I'm not the

Reason anymore
Makes my heart freeze

Broken heart
Shattered dreams

Cracked bones
And stolen colors

You made me
After that you broke me

You stole everything from me
You stole the colors from my world

Now I'm colorblind
You took the blue from my sky, the green from      my grass and the red from my blood

Everything I was once now deformed
Everything I was once now lost

I'm like a puzzle which is missing a piece
and you're the missing piece

Please mend me
Want me
Love me

Because without you I'm incomplete
Without you I'm just a broken glass

I need you

"I hate you!"
"You're a *******!"
"*******"
"No one loves you"

Do I love you?
I don't care.
Well, okay.
I don't love you.

I've grown numb
I'm an outcast
I'm lost

Please help me
Find me in this dark world
Save me

I've grown so numb that I don't even know the taste of **** because I've taken too much.

Remember when we used to hold hands
Or
When we used to kiss
Or
When we used to hug
Or
When we used to talk all night long
Or
When you used to love my flaws
Or
When you used to love me

If I cry a river for you would you come back?
Yes, no, maybe, no, NO.
Well maybe that's just the denouement of our fairtytale.

Hi

Sometimes you just feel lost in this world
****** into darkness where one day the light that brings hope will be gone
But one day will come that there will be someone to light the way
You thought that
Whoever that is will heal your scars
Will wipe  your tears
Will kiss you gently
Will hug you tight
Someone who you thought would stay
But you were wrong
You were wrong turning to the avenue of shattered hearts I will not sugarcoat it though
One day you'll get your heart broken and after that day you'll get your heart broken again
Because you kept on turning to wrong avenues where you'll get lost what matters most is you find your way back to your happy ending.

Take care.
I hope you'll find someone better.

-once