I got lost in those laughters and joy in the album of ours.
I found myself pumped with a big smile
and after, a long sigh.

I can hear you.
the other you, that sunk in the ocean.
shh
I need to leave without shaking the waves.

my heart stopped when yours started to beat.

This time I will lay back NOT beating my heart for you.
I will not pray to God to dry my tears, because
even a slightest me was destroyed by the bullets you threw from your mouth.
I lost myself trying to save us.
I lost us trying to save myself.

Popping up that text brings joy with extra pain back.
But I'll still smile.

I am dying with a smile on my face.
I swear, one more time that lamp post or that cool breeze whispers your name
I will burry it down below where the roots are.
Because my skin, my eyes, everything that has remained yells for you.

I knew i was following rejection.
I could hear you pleading "will you not be mine?"
I knew I was following it,
and didn't want to see it.
But following it made me delete all the memories.
Today I could feel my soul clinging on to my lifeless heart that only beat for the stars to fall from my eyes.