Two bodies is to many!
Why must I have to fear!
One being is plenty!
We could be so much closer my dear!
No need for this distance
Nor the bridge of trust
If we're simply one
Our connection never rust.

In chips of the foundation
The bridge is falling down
In moments without reconciliation
The trust falls to the ground
With in the minds of lovers
The worlds do fall apart
As distance ever grows
Between their very hearts.
they want to only love
But the pride is so insecure
That any minor slip
Is a resentment to incur
And things that were just fate
Are rested in blame
Things that happen all the time
Now result in shame
And fear
Which sets into the minds
And lovers feel so separate
And this makes them blind

Love me just love me
I meant you no harm
Distances away
In the reach of my arm.
And I must be so ugly
For you turn to so hate
When all that I want from you
Is to relate just relate
  I never meant to hurt you
******* my stupid monkey brain
Things just couldn't be
If they didn't make lovers insane.

There's an orange cat
who eats my trash
and I don't mind
I know Hes in a bind
got no where to go.

He wont meet me
got no love to show
but his face says
feed me.


I put food in a bowl on my porch,
he runs when i open the door.
But i peer through the window and see
Orange cat does appreciate me.

Caffeine and cigarettes
body aches and morning breath

dreaded hair that wont brush out
Milk in the fridge long gone stout

Just not enough drive
to move a single finger
until i consume something
and hope that it will linger

but it always brings me down
right after the up

yes once I've had a little
i can never get enough.

Sea side eyes
How many blades of grass
Do you see?
Sea shore sides
How long can you last with me.

I'm ever growing hunger
Moving away from center
Your ever growing longer
Moving deep with in her

I want to see  combustion
Where the horizon meets the sky
create this magnetic seduction
And dance me to the end, where we die.

And we move out ward
In a thousand second glances
Second guesses
Everything we could have been
We could have lost
We could have thought
One single better thought

And that be the bane of our existence.

I die daily
Killing those smaller parts of me
In intentions for a greater
Prospect
Intentions for a greater
Potential.

Hoping for those sea side eyes to find me.
Find me where we both stand tall
Far beyond the Graves of men
And that which shall pass.

I find no pleasure
some days
I find no pain
I find our moments
Are for ever the same.

Spiraling clouds of wow
expound my hearts true sound.
With light that's jetting through
Oh the feeling soon ensues
With the glancing of the eyes
To the surface of surprise
With the moisture whipped air
And the suns caressing care.
Oceans of grey mist
Curling in the wind
I feel like I've been kissed
At every dip and bend.

Cast me from the heavens

And allow me to rise before you in
Fury and flames

To a thousand heights beyond
What you had ever planned.

You know me as your fallen child
Before you know me as your king

When evolution takes me
Far from suffering

And I become the Phoenix
Rising from the sea

Cast me down from heaven
And allow me to be .

Shatter conclusion
Mind revolution
New thought
Revelation
Movement
Then swaying.
How long am i staying.

Cast me from heaven
I will fall to the ground
Bury myself
And vibrate with sound.
Out of the dirt and into the sky
Over again
And never die.

Damaged goods is an understatement
I wanted you to **** me
And when i saw the pain in your eyes
I wanted to sedate me.
Your no *******
but i was mental twist
ooh
I find it hard to live,
ohh
I find it hard to kiss.

Thoughtful expression
In figuring up
How to show
Your undying love.
On the inhale
I feel utter expanse
Like magnets ripping
The coils of my brain.
How life spins in circles
Bigger and smaller circles.

Your holiness reading scripts
yet I wonder what they meant
Some guru holding pose from 8 to 8.

But none of them are walking, like jesus said to do.
No none of them are living a life like mine.

And i wonder what more i could do
with my existence
than I have today .

I make a husband happy.
I baby sit a kid for cheap.
I paint pictures
I sow to reap.
What are we gaining,
from chastity and isolation

at night i center myself in introspection
hoping to do better the next day
to find deeper states of awareness
to bring this world something
it can consume..

But wondering,
we all have some purpose
some place
whats mine.
and whats theirs...
What are we doing

Sudden sickness over take her
with a quickness does it make her
losing touch, whats reality?
Just to much to handle for me.

They are taking pictures
its personal photography
of all the thoughts in my  mind
its personal torturing.

These thoughts are mind
but they aren't mine.
These thoughts are high
But they aren't mine.

I'm getting jaded.
Reality is so faded.
I bet i could believe
nearly anything.

It slips into my head
lays into my bed
offers me to dead.
I listen what it said.

Shhh
Don't you worry
little thought
There's no hurry
You've been caught.

I've got you now,
I've got  you now
let me comfort you in crazy.

I know your memory is hazy.

Please some body wake me.

Steam pressed cheeks
Mine to yours but think
Polorized.
You couldn't give me any more of your face.
But I would take beyond time
And hope you can breathe.

Oh, you have such a pretty brain
So shine and grey so shine and grey
Such pink spindles of sweet knowing flesh
such beautiful swirls of mother knows best.

You make me insane
So shy to day so shy today
How you move me across all borders
how you cut life into perfect quarters.

Young daughter
Pride and narcissis
Flowers blooming
Sensational.
Son
Burning brightly
With in his own vortex.
Waxing and waning
Mean nothing to him .
Feminine
Blooms and then decays
Sorrow fills her heart
Departure never easy

Blazing styrofoam
Fixating on
Certain points
Admiration
Causes want
He never knew.

She grows like lightening
Flying fingers of electrocution
Stream toward and to and away
Flowers all bloom in unison
The moon is full of sin
And the son walks with in it all

Until he craves that nothing peace
That instability of the moving scene
Takes far away from his serene
And he hides from the motions
And her moon wanes still
And her flowers decay
And her mind feels grey.
But he needs the rest
While she nurtures so below
In his darkness
She nurtures as above.

Blue machine
Dripping opal Shimmer
Climbing so high
The sun starts seeming dimmer
Im ready to explode now.

Trance state and calling
Why I pain my own flesh
Why I excruciate each thought.
Who am I reacting to but myself
Do you want to give me my release
Or am I just here for you.
Some days I feel hung
Others not so
And then in that
I taste selfish on my tongue
Can I realize my pain for what it is?

I have revised this personality
twice.
today.
I have moved conjunctions
attempting a new feel.

Reinvention seems so clean
so pure...
But alas,
the movement does not
change the object.

Tame this tongue
to long to run
I catch my phrases
a beat to short.
And when they blast
the feeling lasts.
I've given you support.
Don't be fooled
nor ridiculed
I'm not into to soothing says.
Would you rather me lie
when there's no food left
and you couldn't eat for days?

You've found me
Writhing feathers
Held down by leathers.

You've found me.

Twitching, grasping, gasping.
Trying to wrap my mind around what it means to be alive.
And I don't know.

Butterflies take my insides
To some place anxiety could
Never muster.  
my adrenaline flows,
Only more pure.

And thoughts so fresh
So ancient
So true to what
We know is true.


This neat box they raised me in
The walls fell
And I can smell it still
Like nostalgia on a winter day...
But they are gone
And I could see for miles
If this fog would clear.

Your under bellies softness
It would tear so  effortlessly

Lightening comes down ******* my spine
serpent lifts its body in curved lines
Medusa awakens deep with in the flesh
Mother will reign until there's nothing left.

War.

Stone walled cherry picking slave at her feet.

He begs for one more chance, a thousand kisses deep.

Hoping she will allow, jesus and mary to meet.

another life another love
another chance, a thousand kisses deep.

40,000 years
40,000 lovers

Together in a eternity


Please my soft Sophia
he said don't turn on me.

She shook with such rage,
why couldn't he understand
that every time the world was to end
He came and asked for her hand.

I want you lover just like you want me
but wouldn't you rather play for eternity
than turning in,
and becoming one
I love to melt into you
but being two is so much fun.

He went silent,
just like he does
and she raged in her cage
just like a frightened dove.

Why can't you understad
that you always come
closing the end of time

I want you to go.
I want you to hide.
I need you to run away.
Just leave me behind
I'll wait for your soul
till the end of time


He stilled
like she asked him
he closed her right out
and the pain was intense
but it was written in vow
for better and worse
For sickness and health
for rich and for poor
For the cost of wealth.

Growing tired
he aproached her again
darling I love you
but what your doing is sin.

Its time to go now
its time to retreat,
me into you and you into me

she said

But to play as two is just so much fun
as good as it feels to melt into one.

Stamen and Pistil
fistfuls and blissful
you concrete my grounding


deep cave diving
tall tree climbing
The smell of you is astounding.

Nectar and pollen
like ***** and *****
Rod is fallen
serpent does yearn.

My flowers bloom
only under your moon
and your sun light just
bakes me away.


Couldnt have known you
a moment to soon
and the moment just
takes me away.


Cycle spinning
cross over and spiraling
Moon whoreship sinning
frequency dialing

I think we are just feeling it out.

Even after four years of exclusive vision set on you
Every time i see your face its like meeting some one new.
Its like i knew you in a past life
in the future
in some way
but like I'm meeting you the first time
every single day.

Sacred brain the vitals drain
and spongey  dripping sick

softer shades
of a lighter grey
found under thousands of pounds
of imagined colors.

Undefined
but i want to know
what lays under this color.

These bright contrasts of what  i pretend to be.

Almost suffocating.


What do they mean.

Bleeding blooded
dripped through her teeth
she stopped at nothing to devour me.

Yellow hair  covered uncertain animal.

Trivial fails
and tribal cannibal.

Eat your own flesh
You wobbling legs.

Pressed me into the fire
for a million and one days.


I wanted love from you.
I wanted warmth.

You didn't know the truth
so she only gave me hurts.

I want now, I need.

Desire builds a fire,
and its threatening me.


You ******* beast.
Never gave me what i need.

Now I fend for myself so relentlessly.

Your safe now, your safe now

I repeat to myself.

Oh but those thoughts of what could have been.

Thoughts of that animal tucking me in.

Thoughts of that animal ******* in sin.

Thoughts of that animal bringing me in.

You brought me here
oh trivial fails
you brought me here.

Its all blurred lines till you stand back
funny how perspective grasps at those
shadows
irrespective of reality
and its laws.

Sandy eyes  
Wake me up in the morning
Leave it to you to
To destroy a good thing.

Had it been coming I would never know

But for one thing
I will never show,

Your twisted games
they don't phase me,
I know to well
about emotional hazing
Your blurring the lines,
between real and fake
I've learned my lessons,
And i surely wont take

A bleeding heart sob story
and feed into it
I wont give you my Narcissus
Thats locked away,
chastity is chastity
a million years or just one day.

Expansion beyond these walls.
seven colors, seven thoughts.
Calling inward out.

Speaking through movement
adding emotion
talking in strokes
to define
the image
the pattern
brought forth
from the abyss.